For you

Ever since I was young,
You lead the way and showed me right from wrong.
Your always besides me, youlve always held my hand and made the ground strong enough for me to stand.

Im texting catalina and it seems like she isn't in the mood to talk to me, have I done somthing wrong?
I feel like crying but im going to fight back the tears. I wish I could say what's on my mind but I think it would be wrong of me to say it aloud to the world. Im listening to johnny cash while looking at the painting of the sad clown. Sad of me huh? I wonder what she's thinking of. It seems to me that the one of that has always been there of me is my sword (my pencil) it's all I ever had to let it out but really it just got it down on paper and nothing more. Im waiting for a text but im sure she won't text back. I want to get away from this all for a while but I can't. Today I looked at all my scars and none of them seemes real, none of this does. I miss bryan, now im crying, he was there untill the end of sixth and then he started to go away untill it seems to be two of us in one body. He was always so lone and he was so cold. I must sound crazy but I miss bryan like hell. Me named me axel because he always liked that name. God please make this all stop, im just a kid. My tear drops are hitting my ipod. Now im listenint to ohio is for lovers, I first heard this song in mexico and I told roy and we have to get the cd so I got it and loved hawthorne hights ever since.I just want to feel real. I think im losing her, god I feel like im losing everything. I just don't know what to do about this anymore. I love you :'( im sorry