what a wonderful end to a great week!

;'( not really, I don't even know what to say. I cold single tear just rolled down my cheak. The footbal game was nearly five percent of it. But I walked out of ad's with my head down. I pictured myself standing on big ben on a rainy day with a full moon today ah screw it. Well she's talking to me now. Not even japanese music and make me smile now. Im scared :'( I'll never be as good as everyone else. No matter what I did I was always 2nd best. Now im not even that. No one can be proud of me, mrs.ryan told me she was but I just don't know. The words im ashamed of you keeps repeating over and over in my mind, making me cry even more. I felt like it was wrong of me to walk into "my" room, it says bryan salazar on the door. I don't even know who that is anymore. I feel like I have no name.