i must have hope

but it's hard sometimes ya know?
my head feels like it weighs aton and
it's hard to hold it up. i must stop being afraid,
roy told me that fear is a disease but is it? he's way stronger than me.
the kid thinks im strong and when i look at it i am. i wanna protect her from everything. i never want to see her hurt. it's always raining in my head but i try to dance in the rain. i've been thinking alot about that lately, it's of you and me dancing in the rain. i must fight to push forward, i'll fight. i lov her so much. i wish she could see. one of these days, i promise. catalina rose mckay, if on;y you knew, if only you knew <3