Blah, im doing all I can to take my mind off that thought. I have to find something that catches my interest.at the moment im laying in bed, over my steelers blacket (my head is over our logo in our helmet) not that you needed to know that but I like little details like that.I have a picture of me sitting on daddy's knee because I was small. I like that picture, and it looks like jen is pulling on my little sliper as if thinking to say "my turn. *sneezess* :/ my eyes are so watery that it looks like im crying.joey is punching my knees and it hurts :( I told him I has gonna kick his balls and he stoped real quick. Fact, it takes bryan like two minutes to feel it if he's kicked there. I've been talking in the third person a lot. Im listening to forever and always, can't help but to think of my short one, well she can also be tall so I get the best of both worlds :].im talking to andy, teeheee he was reading with mommyy scene :p. Imma thinkin aloud. Ohh im getting my "hair did" as john would say it. I can't wait! its gonna be short, like 7th grade me? And blondee. Not all blonde, you'll see.im looking at mr.webb's scarf. Fuck, I want this thought to go away. Make it go away? Reminds of of me last year, I couldn't handle it and I ran out of science. Did she really seem if outside mrs. Fischers room? I wonder what she thought. Reminds me of when dr,cordis told me I was a danger to myself, I could tell ya what he said not :x, I still have all my hospital braclets. Please don't let this thought become reality. I might go to school, I think I will to see, I wonder, I hope, I pray, shut up bryan, get ahold of yourself. Well I guess this is goodnight. Sleep well little one. Before I go to sleep know that I'll close my eyes and kiss your necklace. I love you catalina rose mckay. Reminds me of a dream, now that reminds of my a dream by big, witch reminds me of pac, I've been listening to them these past few days, its touching. Deep stuff. Most people think rap is about sex, money and getting shot and well its bascly true, im not gonna lie but there's some good stuff out there. Reminds me of 80 and 90 rock. So different from rap but idk when I thought of goos music I thought that. Sorry, my thoughts are everywhere. Im im thinking of when she was behide me and wraped her arms around me <3. *Sneezes* no kisses for you, I don't want you to get sick because of your loser boyfriend. Well sorry that I draged on like always, this time it's goodnight, promise. Sleep well, reminds me of batman, I just pictured you putting your hand over my mouth, sorryyy bye <3