looks like he knows what to fight for

Quedate, porfavor
yo no se vivir sin tu amor
morire de dolor
no te vayas no me dejes hoy

Quedate, eh sufrido tanto tanto
en estos dias la tormenta se quedo
con mi alegria y por eso no te di
lo suficiente te falle en ventana
de cuenta corriente

Tu no sabes que dificil fue
el camino me toco peliar
corrientes del destino
y no estube cuando me necesitabas
no vi que mis abrazos te faltaban

Escuchame ahora mi corazon te llora
te quiero

Quedate, porfavor
yo no se vivir sin tu amor
morire de dolor
no te vayas no me dejes hoy

Quedate(Quedate),porfavor(porfavor)
ya paso lo peor ya vendra lo mejor
Quedate,me dejaron en la calle una mañana
me quitaron cada sueño que guardaba
pero siempre estabas tu con tu sonrisa
con tu mano regalandome caricias

Yo no quise abandonarte de ese modo
te lo juro que por ti daria todo
es por eso que yo estoy arrepentido
de rodillas como loco te lo pido

Escuchame ahora
mi corazon te llora
entiendeme te ruego
Te Quiero

Quedate, porfavor
yo no se vivir sin tu amor
morire de dolor
no te vayas no me dejes hoy
Quedate(Quedate),porfavor(porfavor)

Ya paso lo peor,ya vendra lo mejor
Quedate,dame una oportunidad
que te quiero demostras
Yo te amo de verdad
Perdoname

Quedate,porfavor
yo no se vivir sin tu amor
morire de dolor...
Porfavor,porfavor
ya paso lo peor ya vendra lo mejor

Quedate...

Now that's something to chase. Or at least I'd like to think so. No. Grrr. I can't question my motives. Not like the chicken who crossed the road. cold and empty like the bottle huh? I understand. Need huh? That's something he's gonna have to see for himself. What am I doing you ask? Listening to the twilight soundtrack. I don't like the ugly movie cover that they put onthe cheap copies for twilight. Gross. Liz in my la class has it.oh, sorry I just spaced out looking into one of the little batman logo's on my pj's. Gr. Likes like a hole in my head and in losing the visons. Someone give me one of those cool sponge looking things that tops the wine bottles. That'll work in the mean while.I need tochange the comic on the board. Its sad. And that's the last thing I need. *sigh* I know what I need. Angelboy out

Her (love)

Where'd this post go? i guess only i know

jacob problems

Who's in and who's out?

In the revolving-door world of Twilight's sequel, New Moon, it could be anyone's guess!

After director Catherine Hardwicke was switched out for Chris Weitz, the next role up for grabs is that of Jacob, the primary love interest in the sequel.

Rumors were buzzing that Twilight's Taylor Lautner would but cut from the cast because (producers) Summit was looking for someone bigger and hunkier, someone like Michael Copon, to play the older Jacob Black.

Both actors are campaigning hard for the role, but no one has been confirmed yet.

In an MTV interview, Taylor says he's been working out since production on Twilight wrapped, putting on 19lbs and promising an additional 10lbs when filming beginings in 3 months, and wants to put to rest rumors that his agent has reached out to the special effects team of Benjamin Button to digitally enhance the 16-year-old's physique.

He adds, "As far as I know, I haven't been told 'no' yet, so it's still all up in the air."

It seems that Lautner is the fan favorite as well, with online polls and petitions showing overwhelming support for his return, for which Taylor says he's grateful.

In a new interview, Michael Copon is likewise hesitant to commit to anything and likewise puts to rest the Facebook campaign rumors, saying that the profile was a fake and has been since shut down.

But he does say that he feels the role is "perfect" for him and that he'd be "honored" to play the part!

They have 12 more weeks to figure it out!

Who would U choose?

This is home.....

A series of anonymous notes have been posted outside schools in the Mexican city of Ciudad Juarez threatening to kidnap pupils if money is not paid.

The notes state that teachers should hand over their end-of-year bonuses to avoid the threat to their students.

No arrests have been made over the threats, but drug cartels are believed to be responsible.

The city, on the US border, has one of the world's highest murder rates with more than 1,400 homicides this year.

Over the last few weeks several notes have been mysteriously pinned up at the entrance to schools in Ciudad Juarez.

They demand money from the staff, and threaten to harm both teachers and pupils if the request is not met.

One of the notes was pinned to a wall outside a kindergarten.

Gruesome violence

The extortion campaign appears to be timed to coincide with the Christmas bonuses teachers in Mexico receive in their December pay packets.

When news of the notes became public, many parents removed their children from school.

Ciudad Juarez is becoming infamous as the place where some of the most gruesome violence in Mexico's ongoing drug wars is concentrated.

More than a quarter of all the murders linked to organised crime in the country this year have been in the city.

As well as schools, hospitals are finding it increasingly difficult to function normally.

Last weekend, hundreds of doctors staged a protest in the city denouncing the extreme level of threats and kidnappings they face every day.

There have been several reports of gunmen entering hospitals to finish off wounded rivals, as they are being treated.

Several medical clinics have closed permanently.

Government officials say that they are doing all they can to defeat the drug cartels, and say much of the violence is a reflection of their success, as leaderless gangs fight one another for dominance.

But the social consequences of such prolonged and prolific violence might present a future battle for this country.

In many schools in northern Mexico, teachers report that their pupils have an increasing tendency to idolise narco-traffickers as untouchable heroes.

LOS ANGELES - "Twilight" fans have a short wait for the next installment of the vampire saga.

Summit Entertainment spokesman Paul Pflug says " New Moon " is following just 12 months after the first movie, opening Nov. 20, 2009, over the same weekend as "Twilight" this year.

Summit has tapped Chris Weitz (" The Golden Compass ") to direct "New Moon," based on the second book in Stephenie Meyer 's best-selling series about the dangerous romance between a teen ( Kristen Stewart ) and a vampire ( Robert Pattinson ) fighting his bloodsucking instincts.

Weitz is taking over the franchise from "Twilight" director Catherine Hardwicke . "Twilight" has shot to $150 million at the box office since debuting Nov. 21.

at first i thought this was horrible, which i think most will, do.
but now i think its so like idk. but now i like it. but if i didnt
have the lyrics in front of me i'd have NO clue what rob is saying.
my thoughts...

i guess someone threw his shoes at bush while he was in iraq?
i saw the video and laughed, about time someone threw something as him.
the game is pissing us off, the defence is not letting anything by. not ours (which is good) but so is theres. and homes and wille ughhhhhh. i dont want to show my face. im trying to keep on an implusive state of mind. great ben. he got picked. great..... and a small fight broke out. someone is going back 15 yards. good and its the ravens. but that still dosent make things much better. well a tiny bit but its like a spect of sand. but it is something. its the start of the 4th quarter now. please dont ask me what im thinking of. i cant lose it now. yesss! wait, fuckkkk there saying it hit the ground first. fuck. at least that stupid raven got hit good. ben better get us a td, i want nothing less. ughhhh looks like our d is gonna have to bail us out against. the new ram looks good. mother ordered us our gifts, i got a coat and so did jen. mine is a six in one. its cool. thankk goo. wille got a first down. i guess again i need to make it harder on me for in the mean while, untill i can get use to this. i guess im the oen that needs to cut my thoughs short like she use to do for me. still does but she asked for time. *sigh* i cant lose it, not now. hold it man. 11:04 left in the game. after this i guess jen's gonna show me how to set my bindings. mother didnt get the stuff again today, she says tomorrow but that could be the same reason tomorrow. if the doctor is right then he'll be due this saturday. thats crazy. i look nerdy with my glasses. but she'd think i;d look cute. i think i have a grip now. i wish i could let go of this and think of things but thers a part of me that wont let me. father is pissed at our line. they arent getting us any points. we're in the redzone. please you guys. i hate thrid downs. they worry me. we need one now. i wont even say waht happened. darn. jeff's kicking from the 30. ops i guess ijust told ya what happened. its 6 to nine now. okay we need to stop them asap and then get a td. and run down the clock. *sigh* can you hear me? im calling out for you.... =X thats what my strong side didnt want me to let out

the new kanye is hott lol heartless

We're gonna have ta work hard on you mister, no more why's. Kays? She was going to bed, just you you, idk just the sound of her voi.. anywho just gonna listen to a slow sweet tune, look at a photograph and the lights out for this boy sent from above. I wish my big sister were here to yell goodnight to her, well im out, night to all

hiro called her mommy, it was very touching in a way. She's healer, I thought it was so cute how claire and hiro were saying the same things but in two different tounge. (I so can't spell) why can't she heal herself tho? But I've heard of powers that you can't use for personal gain. Man I loved, father of my children, poisened. Bullet in his head. Gotcha mrs.p.... what's with nikki? Who's she with? The good guys or the bad?turn power into a weapon, create the perfect man for fight. (I'd spell the s word but I just can't. So changing your own diper huh claire? Lol. Aw this parent stuff got me, well imma have a new bro so that'l be sorta like it? Not really. So she can detect lies. Ugh, syler.... why kill her? Just work with her and figure it out. Lmao caught in the act. Ummm yeah lovely day we're having. So hiro has "the light" watching your mommy die must suck. Wells imma brush up and then rest my head on my pillow, I'll fill my mind of hope and dreams of a nessie, an angel, that's thought me more than I can ever repay her for. Goodnight love, her always, your dork, bryan

it bothers me when kids say i love you and when i ask them whats on their mind its always the same answer "nothing". and i ask them, arent you thinkninf of your mate? and they say not right this second. then is something wrong with my mind? with me? because theres a person in my head that never leaves, she's always there through everything, no matta the weather, rain, frost, warmth, always there. (always) i guess thats me for ya, bryan

and I find peace when I'm confused,
and I find hope when I'm let down,
not in me, Me,
In You, it's in you, you

you can call it an obsession, you can call it stalking, you can call me a freak but i call it love. im rarely happy these days and i feel ashamed. i know i could be a better, happier person. there nothing to be sad about, everything is just fine..... perfect. being along is nothing new to me now, not anymore. but why do i still feel this unstable shaking inside of me? i wont continue, bye

as said by perez

Director Catherine Hardwicke won't be coming back to do the Twilight sequel, New Moon, according to Variety.

It was a timing issue, says the report.

The studio wants to rush the movie out in 2009 and wasn't willing to give Hardwicke the time that she wanted to develop the sequel script.

In a statement, Hardwicke said, "I am sorry that due to timing I will not have the opportunity to direct 'New Moon'. Directing 'Twilight' has been one of the great experiences of my life, and I am grateful to the fans for their passionate support of the film. I wish everyone at Summit the best with the sequel — it is a great story."

And the studio issued this statement, "Catherine did an incredible job in helping us to launch the 'Twilight' franchise, and we thank her for all of her efforts and we very much hope to work with her on future Summit projects. We as a studio have a mandate to bring the next installment in the franchise to the big screen in a timely fashion so that fans can get more of Edward, Bella and all of the characters that Stephenie Meyer has created. We are able to pursue an aggressive time frame as we have the luxury of only adapting the novels into screenplays as opposed to having to create a storyline from scratch."

No one's getting in the way of pumping money out (as quickly as possible!) of the Twilight machine!

But, Miz Hardwick walks away with this amazing feat — she delivered the biggest opening weekend ever for a woman with Twilight. Congrats!

its almost time, i dream of when'll get to say whats on my mind.
if i ever get the chance

Hahahhahahhahahaha!!! =p father slamed the car door on his middle finger today, like just now. The guys in the family got fuckedd this week lol but I told mother and jen that since it happened to father and I then it's gonna happen to em too

from last game cat, wes got ownneedddd

if your feeling downn, lshut up and click on this =)

wanna thank me now or later?

game plan for the rest of my day?
warm shower, then turn on my lullaby and just
let go. i feel like i ca say amen to that. and i will amen.
angel boy out

correction. 33 ta 10

we won! =D 32 ta 10 <3
mi tio was there and he's crazy about the
pats, sorry tio manny.it'll be a long night, i can almost
feel it. i had an amazing dream the other night. i hope for an
other =) later loves

Goshhhh!! why cant our receivers catch a ball?
i mean right now its 23 to 10 with us on top
but it coulda been 37 to 10 if our guys can just
pay attenion. i think your happy? well games back on,
later *looks back ta see green light and sighs*

Easier said then done.

During the Batman R.I.P. storyline, accusations are levied against Thomas Wayne. Claims arise that Martha's parents, always unconvinced about Thomas' intentions, hired a detective to prowl around his life. Much later a man claiming to be the detective returns, giving Commissioner Gordon a dossier in which Thomas Wayne is described as living a dual life: a respected and honest doctor in public, a drunk and abusive husband in private, indulging in orgies and drugs, and addicting Martha herself to heroin to get their marriage going, thus becoming able to embezzle her part of the Kane household. The hired detective then formulates a new theory about Thomas' death: when Thomas discovered that his wife, becoming accustomed to a life of excesses, betrayed him with his butler, no more certain about Bruce Wayne's real parentage, and willing to get revenge over his wife and further hide the secret of his dual life, he used an hired gun to kill her and fake his own death in front of the little Bruce. Gordon dismisses the final theories, and keeps the dossier private. While speaking to Alfred Pennyworth, Dr. Simon Hurt claims to be Thomas Wayne, even wearing the original Batman costume worn by Thomas Wayne, and accuses Alfred of fathering Bruce, although Alfred dismisses Dr. Hurt's purported identity. In the final issue of Batman R.I.P., Dr Hurt still claims to be Thomas Wayne, the black glove, but Batman refutes Hurt's identity, identifying Hurt as Mangrove Pierce, who has been behind the missing piece of every crime Batman has ever investigated. As he escapes in a helicopter, Hurt tries to blackmail Batman into serving him by threatening to release pictures and documents showing his parents and Alfred to be perverts and criminals to the worldwide media, but Batman rejects this offer, instead jumping onto the helicopter, bringing it down in an explosion, with neither Hurt or Batman being seen for at least six months after the crash.

The sound track of today

word?

We feel for the President-Elect, as we assume most of you will.

According to new reports, the soon-to-be President will likely surrender his beloved BlackBerry before stepping into the White House.

In addition to concerns about e-mail security, he apparently faces the Presidential Records Act, which puts his correspondence (ALL of it! Profesh AND personal!!) in the official record and ultimately up for public review.

Barack has proven to be like many of us, BlackBerry (literally) attached to his side to keep constant tabs of what's going on at work and with family/friends.

Can you imagine life without your BlackBerry, iPhone, or SideKick?

Unimagineable, huh?!

ouch, that one hurt sonia =/

great night <3
i know what id like for my birthday,
death can for cutie cd's please =)
the cd i want mostest is called "plans"
im going to bed. over and out

i sing this song, honest

please forgive me for i know not what i do,
all i ever wanted was you

amazing

BERLIN - An American man who suffered from AIDS appears to have been cured of the disease 20 months after receiving a targeted bone marrow transplant normally used to fight leukemia, his doctors said.

While researchers — and the doctors themselves — caution that the case might be no more than a fluke, others say it may inspire a greater interest in gene therapy to fight the disease that claims 2 million lives each year. The virus has infected 33 million people worldwide.

Dr. Gero Huetter said Wedneday his 42-year-old patient, an American living in Berlin who was not identified, had been infected with the AIDS virus for more than a decade. But 20 months after undergoing a transplant of genetically selected bone marrow, he no longer shows signs of carrying the virus.

"We waited every day for a bad reading," Huetter said.

It has not come. Researchers at Berlin's Charite hospital and medical school say tests on his bone marrow, blood and other organ tissues have all been clean.

However, Dr. Andrew Badley, director of the HIV and immunology research lab at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minn., said those tests have probably not been extensive enough.

"A lot more scrutiny from a lot of different biological samples would be required to say it's not present," Badley said.

This isn't the first time marrow transplants have been attempted for treating AIDS or HIV infection. In 1999, an article in the journal Medical Hypotheses reviewed the results of 32 attempts reported between 1982 and 1996. In two cases, HIV was apparently eradicated, the review reported.

Huetter's patient was under treatment at Charite for both AIDS and leukemia, which developed unrelated to HIV.

As Huetter — who is a hematologist, not an HIV specialist — prepared to treat the patient's leukemia with a bone marrow transplant, he recalled that some people carry a genetic mutation that seems to make them resistant to HIV infection. If the mutation, called Delta 32, is inherited from both parents, it prevents HIV from attaching itself to cells by blocking CCR5, a receptor that acts as a kind of gateway.

"I read it in 1996, coincidentally," Huetter told reporters at the medical school. "I remembered it and thought it might work."

Roughly one in 1,000 Europeans and Americans have inherited the mutation from both parents, and Huetter set out to find one such person among donors that matched the patient's marrow type. Out of a pool of 80 suitable donors, the 61st person tested carried the proper mutation.

Before the transplant, the patient endured powerful drugs and radiation to kill off his own infected bone marrow cells and disable his immune system — a treatment fatal to between 20 and 30 percent of recipients.

He was also taken off the potent drugs used to treat his AIDS. Huetter's team feared that the drugs might interfere with the new marrow cells' survival. They risked lowering his defenses in the hopes that the new, mutated cells would reject the virus on their own.

Anthony Fauci, director of the National Institute of Allergy and Infections Diseases in the U.S., said the procedure was too costly and too dangerous to employ as a firstline cure. But he said it could inspire researchers to pursue gene therapy as a means to block or suppress HIV.

"It helps prove the concept that if somehow you can block the expression of CCR5, maybe by gene therapy, you might be able to inhibit the ability of the virus to replicate," Fauci said.

David Roth, a professor of epidemiology and international public health at the London School of Hygiene and Tropical Medicine, said gene therapy as cheap and effective as current drug treatments is in very early stages of development.

"That's a long way down the line because there may be other negative things that go with that mutation that we don't know about."

Even for the patient in Berlin, the lack of a clear understanding of exactly why his AIDS has disappeared means his future is far from certain.

"The virus is wily," Huetter said. "There could always be a resurgence."

(This version CORRECTS spelling of doctor's name to Huetter throughout.)

: ur this totally amazing guy who every girl shoudl kill for cause u know how to treat a girl right and are so cute and unbelievablly sweet yes a batman dork but the best there is and not only one girl wants u

me sis ashley believes in me =)

Fuck icp.

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

And so the black and gold advance to 6/2 =)
and so he lays he head on his pillow and lets go.



imagine

Where'd honnor go?

bite me

Hello​,​​​​ your name is:
bryan


Who holds​ your heart​ at the momen​t?​​​​​
i think that person knows



Are your paren​ts over the age of 40?
father is




Is there​ anyon​e that you wish was out of your life?​​​​​
no not really, no i cant say that i want someone out




When'​​​​​s the last time you fell or ran into somet​hing?​​​​​
i cant really remember


Have you ever moved​?​​​​​
once yea




Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?
was like a half hour ago, now watching csi in the
office



What song is it if so?
sliver and cold


Have you ever had a song writt​en about​ you?
nope


If you could​ chang​e your eye color​ what would​ it be?
i wouldnt change my eye color they sorta fit me, the big
man up stairs gave em to mee


What was the WORST​ thing​ that happe​ned to you today​?​​​​​
um boredom?

When'​​​​​s the next time you'​​​​​ll see your best frien​d?​​​​​
not for a short while, on monday i;ll see her


Is there​ somet​hing you would​ like to tell someo​ne but can'​​​​​t?​​​​​
maybe but it dosent have to do with me


On a scale​ of 1-10 how good is your life?​​​​​
eh idk five or six? maybe at high seven but not offen, rarely. vary.



How many peopl​e outsi​de of your famil​y do you trust​?​​​
two.


What was the reaso​n you last shout​ed at some one?
umm because i wanted them to come to my table?



Would​ you bang your neigh​bor?​​​​​​
sike.


Descr​ibe your relat​ionsh​ip statu​s?​​​​​​
single


​

Are you a bad influ​ence?​​​​​​
id think not



Would​ you do anyth​ing for someo​ne else?​​​​​​
depends who that somebody was



Besid​es this,​​​​ what are you doing​ right​ now?
watching csi and thinkning



Who will be the first​ perso​n you call tomor​row?​​​​
i kinda dont call people



Do you like to have long hair or short​ hair?​​​​
somewhere in between



Who was the last perso​n you hung out with?​​​
the manhunt people and before that jay and erka



If you could​ have one thing​ right​ now, no limit​ation​s,​​​ what would​ it be?
her



Would​ you rathe​r be drunk​ or high?​​​
neither really, hear they arent nice, if any drunk. never high, i dont do drugs



Barak​ Obama​ or John McCai​n?​​​
obama

mcwrinkes is toooo old =)




Is it possi​ble that you could​ be pregn​ant right​ now?
i would certainly hope not =p



If the year consi​sted of only one seaso​n,​​​ which​ would​ you choos​e?​​​
autumn




Do you hate being​ alone​?​​​
yes




Is there​ a perso​n that knows​ every​thing​ or mostl​y every​thing​ about​ you?
you know there is this one person.




Are you enemi​es with a forme​r frien​d?​​​
nopes




Do you still​ talk to the perso​n you were datin​g 8 month​s ago?
yepps this morning i did



How did you and your numbe​r 1 becom​e frien​ds?​​​
school and so much more


Where​ is your last ex?
with family *sigh8



Who was the last perso​n in your bed besid​es you?
jen sat on it while striaghtening her hair




Do you curre​ntly have a hicke​y?​​​
hahaha sike.



Did anyon​e see you kiss the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​​
no?




Do you drink​ tea?
sometimes yeah


​

What'​​​s a bad habit​ you have?​​​
umm i have a few but i do them apart from one and other so im never doing
two at the same time




Are you addic​ted to anyth​ing that is not a recre​ation​al drug?​​​
um maybe? beats me



What side of the bed do you sleep​ on?
middleish? idk you tell me



Do you miss any exs?
read my mind


Do you find the oppos​ite sex confu​sing?​​​
sorta?



Name 3 peopl​e who you talke​d to today​?​​
david, kahtia, catalina



What were you doing​ at 8 am this morni​ng?​​
sleeping


What were you doing​ 30 minut​es ago?
music


What is your favor​ite board​ game?​​
thats a toughhie



What are you weari​ng right​ now?
south park shirt and gym shorts

What was the last thing​ you ate?
chicken

Have you bough​t any new cloth​ing items​ this week?​​
nope



What'​​s somet​hing funny​ that happe​ned today​?​​
when someone called me and when i said "who calls me bruh?" and
when i was IMing jen and i said g2g and she yelled bryan! you live in my house you cant say g2g =p


What'​​s the last sport​ing event​ you watch​ed?​​
football, gators vs bulldogs


If you could​ go anywh​ere in the world​ where​ would​ you go?
well theres three places, one is pittsburgh other is mexico, you guess the third


Who is the last perso​n you sent a messa​ge on Myspa​ce?​​
roy



Ever go campi​ng?​​
not really? closest i did to that was with the mckays =)
really good memories there



Have you ever lost anyth​ing down a toile​t?​​
nopes


Do you use smile​y faces​ on the compu​ter?​​
yepps


Are you someo​ne'​​s best frien​d?​​
i'd like to say yes, to two people



What are you doing​ tomor​row?​​
no clue



Where​ is your mom right​ now?
living room



Look to your left,​​ what do you see?
fake flowers, sound stystem, lamp, chairs. and a huge window



What color​ is your watch​?​​
dont have one


Do you have a dog?
pstt i wish



Any plans​ today​?​​
not one, hung around all day =(


Where​ are you right​ now?
at the place i lay my head at night



Favor​ite pair of shoes​ you wear all the time?​​
dc's no laces



Is anyon​e jealo​us of you?
doubt it


What time is it?
7:53


Do you hate anyon​e right​ now?
eh, i say hate but just dislike


When was the last time you kisse​d someo​ne?​​
havent had a kiss in over a month, i believe in someday tho



Do you use the word '​​hello​'​​ daily​?​​
not really



How many kids do you want to have?​​
at most three



How old will you be turni​ng on your next birth​day?​​
15


How did you get one of your scars​?​​
one on my ankel, jen couldnt hold the stupid metal table up

Dear loves,
guess that makes two
of them. i hope they arent
mad at me. naw she loves me lol
she couldnt be mad at me and well
jay does stuff. i have no idea what imma
do today. take me away somewhere? just you and me.
who ever you maybe. no, no, i wont let these fall.
bye

Moved to Through me eyes =)

Must be sort of nice to
be adored and to have choice
always tho, even if it does seem
like a curse at times. if not always.
So i woke up at 9:13. want to take a
guess at the geek's sqaud's cars number?
yeah. thats it. i sighed and looked up.
that was last night before i left. laura is
sad. jason honestly dosent like her. it was
nice seeing dad again. Mom misses having me
around =) my hair still feels fake. want to
hit me for it? kays well im added more tunes
onto the brick. i dont have one once of hate
towards him anymore. its funny how that all
worked out. no,no,no, you can't think like
that dude. bad boy. kays well then um? the
crew had a bad halloween night. i wasnt the
kid in white this year. she says i wasnt last
year either. i have no idea what im gonna do
today. waste of gorgeous? ha im thinking maybe
too much of myself. no mall friday, she'd miss
me. yesterday i realized how they wouldnt ever
be like brought together without me. like it's
hard to explain but its like so....true. i feel
older. i think im like eight months older than
you catalina. only one person commented the pictures.
oh well. maybe in time, yeah hat sounds about right now.
i wonder what was the first thought of hers waking up.
you can guess on this one too. yeah it was her, always was
but i just dont say it. like when i told her i couldnt tell
her what i miss and i did. but she said my words like sounded
amazing *smiles*. i dazzle her sometimes. kays well imma go
umm count something or something =) bryan over and out <3

si estoy loco,
es por tu culpa.

Shes pretty, watches heroes, understands football
and has a dog, why isnt she married? =)

What did you think of my dream?

And so the rain fell down tonight

I will regret this night.
Don't worry about it.

What is your Boyfriend/girlfriends name?
I'm single.

What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
dark blue

What are you listening to right now?
dave chappelle X)

Whats your favorite number?
7 or 13

What was the last thing you ate?
a sub. philly cheese

If you were a crayon what color would you be?
gray?

How is the weather right now?
cold partly cloudy and windy

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
joey

The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
face, style, personality

Do you drink?
sometimes

Do you smoke?
naw

Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did?
nopes, never drunk

Eye Color?
brown

Do you wear contacts?
nopess

Favorite Holiday?
christmas and the forth of july, your birthday gab

Favorite Month?
october? winter?

Have you ever cried for no reason?
yeah

What was the last movie you watched?
i have no cl. ohh! eageal eye

Favorite Day of the Year?
birthday?

Are you too shy to ask someone out?
usually

If you could say something to someone right now what would you say?
If you give me half the chance i'll never leave you standin out in the rain

Hugs or Kisses?
both

Chocolate or Vanilla?
vanilla <3

What books are you reading?
eclipse

Favorite movie?
Halloween five?

Favorite football Team?
Pittsburgh Steelers <33

What were you doing before this?
on aim, waiting for someone good to sign on

Any pets?
not one. had a turdle once tho

Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
kettlecorn please =)

Dogs or cats?
dogs

Favorite flower?
lotus

Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suposed to be doing?
ya

Have you ever loved someone?
Still do

Who would you like to see right now?
thats a hard pick.

Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
afew

Have you ever fired a gun?
yesss:D

Do you like to travel by plane?
sometimes

Right-handed or Left-handed?
righty

If you could have one drink right now what would it be?
bacardyy sliver (i cant spell)

How many pillows do you sleep with?
one, its grren

Are you missing someone?
yahh

Do you have a Tattoo?
not yet

Are there people on your myspace page that you would date or go on a date with?
yerp

How old is the last person you kissed?
14

Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever?
once, someday maybe

Have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning?
nope

Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
six timesish

Have you ever held hands with anyone?
yes

How has this week been?
flying by

Why did you last laugh really hard?
nothing really


How is your hair?
okayishh

When is your birthday?
23/11

Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
for the most part

Do you like someone?
that i do

Do you believe in true love?
i do.

Have you ever kissed anyone that's name that started with the letter B?
never

Are you proud of the person you've become?
in ways and in others no

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
on occasions

The last person you kissed needs you at 3 am and you have a way to get to them, would you go? i'd walk to her yes.



Who is your number 2?
roy

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
yeah +/

What is wrong with you right now?
throat

Do you know what you're wearing tomorrow?
yahh i do

If you could hug anyone right now, who would it be?
claire

Do you make every decision as if your parents are watching you?
not at all

Does anyone think you are a bitch?
who knowss

Have you ever woke up next to someone and smiled?
nopes

When is the last time you talked to your grandma?
i cant =(

Do you crack your knuckles?
Kinda cant, i made a promise

How many months until your birthday?
about one, get me something cute

What's the last bone you broke?
never bone one

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
this morning

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
yerp

Where is your phone?
on this desk

Do you have empty bottles of alcohol hidden somewhere?
hahahaha yeah i do =X

Anyone Laying Next To you?
nope +/

Don't let the number of the post scare you,
i'm an angel to some, superman to one lois <3

21/10/8

Morning journal,
I try to sleep but there are nightmares when i try.
Now more than ever i don't know what i'll end up doing.
Hell i dont even know which foot will be placed on the ground
when i walk. I can't make a plan, no, i can't, those who make plans
get failure, disapointment... and i don't need anymore. Believe im me journal.

yeah that was my first entry of the day, wanna sing with me?

I'm sorry, yes I am, for everything that I've done.
How can I do this right, without you in my life.
Even though I say I love you I've gotta make a change in my life, baby,
I realize that you're better off without me by your side.
You're a special lady and I know I'm not ready for you, oh

i sing that part alot now. Those who makes plans are better off,
but like mi tia tells me for safe measures, she always tells me
to take each day at atime. she dosent want me back at ccmc for depression.
When i ODed she wasnt sure if i was okay, she thought it was badd. It was when i did, it was horrid. i was throwing up everything, i had one of the worst headaches and i didnt sleep for three days. i wish i would have gone to the hospital but i handled it at home. Stupid mistake. after when i told nancy that i was still fucked up they took me to look at me. thats who i once was. im loved blog, you know that?
well im gonna rest my head, most likely will take a nap. Awake and dreaming, bryan

Dear loves,
it's alright,
i have a killerr headache.
anyone wanna kiss my forehead?
Don't leave john, trust him, he needs you.
to him your his best friend. Just dont leave him.
i mean youd move on, not like i was buddy budy with riely anyways.
guess i should move on to. keep my chin up and keep my eyes straight forward.
like i told you, i always told you to keep your shin up beacsue you tend to walk
with your head down. Not so much anymore tho. Don;y worr ythat i'll go after him,
im no monster. i'd hurt no one but myself but i think ive learned to respect my body
tho so i dont hurt myself. im sure there someone that'd love me. she does. someday.
clair? espn says we're one of the best teams but, we're always the underdog. but
i like being the underdog, i wouldnt waant everyone to see us as how they use to see
the colts. and now everyone thinks they suck. wanna know what i wrote in my journal first thing in the morning? wait let me to run to ger my bookbag.

I'd like you to meet my friend jack

Sally? Where'd you go? Will you be coming back?
it's awfuly cold out there tonight, it's always cold now
since you've been gone.

Why did you last laugh​ harde​st today​?​
huh? ididnt laugh hard today. did laugh tho
at the sight of the people in the one peice pj's.
like andrew =)


Are you good at hidin​g your feeli​ngs?​
depends, if i want to i think i could be a ghost but thats if i try
super hard, i try not to find them?



Do you wave when you see peopl​e you know?​
most of the time and to my mall people i give em hugs
and to some people in the hall way we do this strange manly
stupid nod thingy





Can you braid​ hair?​
im like white, sorta kinda, not really. so nope i cant =p



Who are you disap​point​ed in right​ now?
this one guy, maybe you know him





Do you have trust​ issue​s?​
i questioned trust and it bite me in the ass,
theres something i wont do in the future. end of story.




Do you drink​ Red Bull or any other​ energ​y drink​ on a regul​ar basis​?​
gross much?



Have you ever told someo​ne you like them?​
*nods head*



What were you doing​ at 11:​00 AM?
wrting in my class journal, waiting for the phone to reing to tell
me in dimissed.




What did you do today​?​
school, got a shot and text up a storm, and gym soon, btw i lost four lbs =)
proud of me?




What did you do this weeke​nd?​
friday- mall with my people
saturday- spend the day con mi tia
sunday- watch the game at ad's and textedd




Who is the last perso​n who wrote​ a lette​r to you on paper​?​
a letter you say? havent gotten one of those since those school pals things
from grade school. but if you mean note then i got one in eighth grade


Have you ever had the same dream​ more than once?​
when i was little... it was scary as hell



Do you prefe​r regul​ar or choco​late milk?​
rice milk, you already know =p


Can you whist​le?​
yea but not too well


What color​ are the pants​ you'​re weari​ng?​
blue gym shorts


​

Do you have a tramp​oline​ at your house​?​
does it sound like i want to break my neck? naw i dont. pool tho,
which i only been in like what twice? i dont know how to swim.



Last song you sang out loud?​
turn back the time.



Have you ever taken​ medic​ation​s that were presc​ribed​ to someo​ne else?​
yes, i wont lie. bad habit of mine



Would​ you ever get a tatto​o?​
i want my first to be a little star behind my ear and yeah i want lots of them.
mostly under my shirt tho, so i can get a good job



Are you usual​ly the first​ to say sorry​ when you'​re in a fight​,​ or the last?​
mostly always. the other person usally never does.


Do you wear the hood on your hoodi​e?​
messes up my hair but yes, how gay do i sound? it messes but my hair




Name somet​hing that made you frown​ today​?​
walking down the hall way that sint mine and seeing wes walk alone. =(





Have you ever gotte​n alcoh​ol poiso​ning?​
not yet, no, headacheish tho, tipsy, never drunk




Have you held hands​ with anyon​e today​?​
sike.




Have you ever been suspe​nded?​
never


Do you find the oppos​ite sex confu​sing?​
at times but if i look at them they are maybe not that confusing?


i take that back. they are rather confusing, yes.



How has this week been?​
eh.

good. okay. bad. terrible.

lots of things.

well last week since this week barely started.
over and out loves

Dont mind the pictures just listen

AngelBoy

El tempo que pasa no regresa

I'll meet you at the crossroads

here is the deepest secret nobody knows. here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide. and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart... i carry your heart, i carry it in my heart

*sits you on my lap* =)

This reminds me of bella and edward

Do you know how much you meant to me?
Oh no
Do you know I still carry the memories?
Oh no
Did you know that for me letting go wasn't easy?
Oh no, no you don't

Do you still listen to our lullaby?
Oh no
Does it help you get to sleep at night?
Oh no
Are you singing along by the pale moonlight?
Oh no, no you don't

I just need a bit more time
To get you off my mind tonight
I'm thinking of your bright blues eyes,
Brighter than the stars that lit the skies,
An angel in disguise

I just need a bit more time
I wanna hold you in my arms tonight
I can't forget those bright blue eyes,
Can't forget the moment they met mine
Please turn back the time.

(besides the blue eyes part)

I liked last night even tho it was short lived,
it was hard to fall asleep tho, you know, thoughts =)
i think i might give ben a 2nd chance tonight. i like this song lots.
not sure why i think this line but jersey just got colder and i'll have you know im scared to death. i even like my hair now. =) she thinks of me always. Goal for tonight is 200 pages. well now that im up, imma go het clean and stuff. *graps you by the waist, pulls you close and kisses you*

About 13 hours from jfk to london.
mother seems cool with it. But i want to go
around this time next year so i get winter there.
and a winter here. but i'll be nearly 16 by then but i'll
wait. he'll get use to it, then he'll learn to like it. listen to me?
guess the word on my mind

Dear readers,
im on in third disk
of heroes. adam saw hiro kiss her.
when hiro froze time right before their lips touched
he should have left it at that. and gone somewhere else. like
back to present time would have done nicely. i got just a text.be back in a sec. oh.
im maybe having second thoughts about london. Where in the world will i go? will it be beautiful there? Will the view be breath taking? will i want to come back? dream bryan. "first you teached me that no sword could hurt me then you cut me deeper than any blade ever could" adam. now im thinkning of wat charlie said and what bell said to it. im sort of going back and forth with the batarangs, i know if i get them i wont want to just place them there like i do with some of my other things. collect dust. and they are super sharp. on nine sides. mother is telling me to look up the tickets now. later

I wonder what time she comes back from her other school.
Im the only freshmen in my thrid and fourth block class.
courtney said hi to me today at lunch. shawna gave me a hug.
Im not im the mood for alot. just trying to say okay. maybe tomorrow will
be better. just like the song says. i finished new moon in second block. troy
is in my class. gaby? i tried, i did. a cop made us all leave. I thought i could try to see her since i only saw you for what nine seconds? something is something. but i was going the wrong way so if i wasnt lost i wouldnt have scene you..... scene, like andy. bowie seemed happy when i told her i was done with new moon. when i try to talk to people about the books its like they didnt pay any attention to the book. my teacher, who teaches like us how to heat up and connect two pieces of metal lost part of his finger. it looks strange. maybe she dosent like it as much as me. i wonder what she thinks of during the day. i know. well know the part that matters.
victoria from gym class texts me now. her sister says im like "the ideal boyfriend" because i teat her right and love her. im going to go with my mother today. if your reading this could you smaybe say something? no matter who your are. feel like im only doing this for me. i mean i like doing this but a comment now and then would maybe nice. over and out

is it him? i hope im wrong

hahahaha u had to go to the hospital bc ur a fuckin emo freak..... who cuts their self for fun? u do it bc u dont have any friends or r u just a plain emo kid. no1 likes u so just stop cutting urself


but i think im right

18/10 i plan on going to the webster

i took a nap =)
nearly two hours.

*lays head on your tummy*
babe when edward was in bella's room
as he talked it remined me of how i talk to you
about just anything. like when we talk for a while.
i love what he said on page like 300, 301,302,303.
that he's red about jealousy many times, scene actors play it
out thousands of time but it hit him hard when mike asked her to
the dance. im seeing you wens? now i find myself calling you name more
, becase you said it gets your ears ringing. jen making my school stuff. over and out sweetie

mama? i know your out there.
mama? i love you.

its hot here again mama.
guess im going to tough it out like
a man. i wonder how tomorrow will be.
i go back tp the hospital for the first time
since i left ccmc. the week of halloween.
ive been having these strange thoughts lately.

school is right around the corner now.
my mom said something to me today.
i was being stupid and jokely asked for 400k for clothes.
and you know what she said to me ma? she said with your looks
people shouldnt care if you have a stupid little eagle on your shirt
or a dumb seagul on a pair of jeans. with your face you can wear rags and still manage to keep your love or find new easly.

mama, i wont cry. i want to be strong like you now.
i worried that my hair was what gave me my confidance but now that
i dont have much i dont care. its just dead cells aways. *lays head on your tummy*
want to know something? when i put twilight down i kiss the book. thanks again for giving me a little push towards it. i dream of alot honey. im truely bless

Don't ever take anything for granted people, i hope
by reading this you'll turn to the wonderful people in your life
and thank them for being there. bryan

Edward said it right =/
When i here i brust through the
door and brust through the door like
a mad man, to to see if maybe there would
be a stuoid blue light on the ball. i wonder
if her ears are ringing because im calling out for
her. X13

hey sweetie,
im on page 67 in the burn journals.
my goal for the night is 140 but if not 120.
it's 11:20. im really into the book babes i just figured i"d tell you what im up to. i think jen really misses carlos now. yo know that guy i showed you yesterday.
well back to reading. ily

ummm hey blog?
semi lock down?
i hope its nothing big,
i do, can help but wonder tho,
hey i didnt get a headache today hun =)
guess its because "i've starting eat right"?
im looking for batman on youtube (1989) 13

sweet i think my lx is getting video,
tmobile said we'd be getting it

just came back from the movies,
i waited for a while tho, sat on the curb and i
wished i could have been there with you catalina.
i felt so bad because i didnt kiss you =( now i have to wait awhole day,
the hug from both you and gaby meant so much. i love you girls <3 now imma head up to my room and crash, your welcome to come babe. bryan

fact

i sometimes grab my phone like a mic and sing along to the song plaing

babyshower today baby??
im like past insaneeeeeeee.
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ps amazing grace is a nice song

these conditions have left my heart cold to your pleaves of mercy.
victor freeze. messed up on his last name up its alright. about three more hours till she's home. tryed putting them away in my journal but part of it lingers. gonna try to shake it, over and out. lol shake it =p

whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
bernie mac died =( RIP

six hours of sleep is enough, at about like 5:20 i
went to bed. this song makes me think, get lost. she comes back today =).
i think mi tia is in new mexico now. alex texts now, ive know her for about two years. room is messy, ha i shaved today me face was all yeah cause when she like goes away i feel like id dont have to? at about 1 and one 30 i watched the geogre lopez show this jen, funnyy stuff. its 11:07. later

just give me a clue, a sign....

let me know what's on your mind let me know what I'm gonna find
it's all in time show me how to teach the mind show me how to reach the blind
give me a sign show me what I gots to do to bring me closer to you cause Imma go through whatever you want me to just let me know what to do give me a sign

Hello readers,
Here in the mall,
Gots some new stuffs and a big batgirl comic, I can't stop thinking of my girl and of what bruce is like when he's super old and how terry is. Im here eating at california, pizza kitchen. The lemonaid is like superrrr limey. If I wasn't trying to be like normal me I'd have a short fuse. Sucks. Its not forever dude, just half of eternity =p, naw. I can't wait to get home and eat the comic. I think batgirl is into girls teehee. The lady that is bring me the food is wearing her hair in pigtails. Guess the fam is a soft subject for me. Ohh and manwell is qb :] that's me primo. I thought I posted this last night? Well its morning now. I would be like pisseddddd if I were into baseball and into the redsocks. Im listening to the used. This is day one of cat being away. Hahahahahaha blogg =p I know who's batgirl's mum and you don't =pppp. I told my journal tho. Hmmmm I gotta look up yellow labs for sale in ct. My room is messy, I'll clean it soon, not like there's more to do. Me partner said I kinda had to go to bed last night and thas why I woke up at 9:15. I guess bert farve is gonna be backup. Sucks huh. He needs to wait two years and if he still wants to play thennnn since he wouldn't be under contract, leave for a new better team were he can be starter. The book cat wanted is out, could of had it to her if I called jason but I guess she didn't want me to. Like all a lot of people like her books huh? Well joe only reads like strange movie books and d&d and what not, jon idk if he reads, me, batman comics are my thing. And cat likes comics too and like anybook emily says is good. The golden car got a new hood. Not sure why but it has a new one. Kay now im listening to stan. Mother just left to get her nails done and pick up my big sister. Kay well um what's there to talk about people? Oh and miley cyrcus is a whoreeee. Juist wanted to get that off my chest.just looking through my blog and my partner said that im so damn cute :]. Listening to the bird and the worm. Well now its ten O nine. Imma eat, later

Terry reminded me of well me, when he called he's gf and he said "noooo" and ily quicky. Gotham can be real, right here *puts a hand on my head* there anything could be real, well to a certain point. And the way she said fine reminded me of her. Im gonna team up with jen and see if we can get a dog. A lab. Bruce wouldn't have done it. I even knew. Oh and babe? Wonder woman might get her own movie too

Terry reminded me of well me, when he called he's gf and he said "noooo" and ily quicky. Gotham can be real, right here *puts a hand on my head* there anything could be real, well to a certain point. And the way she said fine reminded me of her. Im gonna team up with jen and see if we can get a dog. A lab. Bruce wouldn't have done it. I even knew. Oh and babe? Wonder woman might get her own movie too

Terry reminded me of well me, when he called he's gf and he said "noooo" and ily quicky. Gotham can be real, right here *puts a hand on my head* there anything could be real, well to a certain point. And the way she said fine reminded me of her. Im gonna team up with jen and see if we can get a dog. A lab. Bruce wouldn't have done it. I even knew. Oh and babe? Wonder woman might get her own movie too

Epilogue 3/3

Epilogue 2/3

Mall instead I guess, there is a bookstore there with comics so I might get one or two. The xbox controllers are being stobbornnnn. Hmmm, like someone I know :].im watching a show on tlc and this couple had like eight kids! That's crazyyyyy huh? Awwww, the boys fought (boys will be boys babe) and their mum made em hug and the one that hit the othr had to kiss the onther one on the cheek. That would work untill the age of four huh babe? Cause I don't think five year old boys would wanna kiss one an other after they fight. Cute idea rho huh? Could we have two boys and one girl babe? The boy's would take care of their little sis. I'd teach em well. And you'd give em more than enought love and teach of loadssss too. Cool bow bow is a big batman fan, he's wall's is pretty cool, he had someone airbrush pac and big on his walls.

Talked to me partner for 45 mins, thought I wouldn't have said it buit I did twice

Looks like there were two girl robin's babe, stephanie brown and carrie kelly. And the girl nightwing's name was karen starr, well blah, bryan over and out

Joey and I are at each other troats :/ I gotta fix this

I think mother gets hone at like six so idk about the comics :/ damn. Well I'll just get ready for maybe something on later on? Idk but if mother's going somewhere I'll tag along for the ride. Later folks

Helllooooo,
Kay bryan, keep your cool.
Babee a week's a long time, I missed you tonnnssss and now like four days is gonna be like ten :/. Kay babe. Hmmmmmm im watching some show on mtv called dismissed. Me mum said she's gonna take me to get some comics :], imma ask the guy for the comics that take place right after jason's death. And the start of tim drake. Catalinaaaaaaa, a whole week babe? Gotta keep busy then. The sk 2008 is out already? Nawwwwww. Well it is in the name. Jason wants me to go to the mall but I don't wanna waste me cash so bruce is watchin it for me. Its 2;39. The time I'd be at my locker. This show isn't too great. I like boiling point better. Ahhhhhhhh, a week man, *slaps my cheek* I gotta get ahold of myself. I stacked the paper thin comics, give it some time and that pile will be the same size as the big one. Grr, headache.maybe I should do to mi tia's? Ohh yeah and the dark knight has mmade 411 million. I think that's the closest a film has gotten to the titanic (601 million) bryan out :]

Awwwwwww, im watching epilogue, the episode in which terry finds out the truth. Touching really. You gotta see babe. <333333, know you har it all the time so here, *places your hand over my chest* some words are better left unspoken huh babe? *kisses your forehead*

Awwwwwww, im watching epilogue, the episode in which terry finds out the truth. Touching really. You gotta see babe. <333333, know you hear this all the time catalina but I love you

She has to stop doing that lol, she leaves before I wake up so im like what gives every morning. Use I gotta get use to it again. Still sorta sleepy but now im listening to seether. Today's friday, jen comes home tomorrow night. I guess the solor eclipse already pasted? Damn. I t was today. The chinese call it "rishi" it means "eaten sun" I have no idea what im goning to do later on today. My tummy is empty. Cat would tell me to fill it up =p. Kay well lets see that's there around this joint to eat. Oh and did I tell you that venmon from spiderman three is gonna have his own movie? S o that means, green lantern is gonna have his own, venom, wolvirine, and spiderman four homes out in 2011 and bain is set to make at least two more batman movies. And they say that johnny depp is showing interest in being the riddler and that brad pitt's wife would maybe wanna be catwoman. Guess superhero movies are all the rage huh? Well imma eat, <3 13

Baby! I had the weirdesttt dream, kay well I guess our grade was on a field trip to the space staion, and there they had this hugeeee roller coastor (almost like superman but not as big) anywho a lot of us went on and we went on a few times before something went wrong right babe. Well at hone point my seat beat like came off and we were nearinglike a loop so I was like ohhhh shitt and like I was some rope outta nowhere and tie myself down but like there was the whole group of three that just flew outta there seats and died? Well jon was one of em but he just had like a broken jaw somehow but I couldn't find you at allllll and I was panicinggg BIGGGGG time and I couldn't ask jon his you on in that row because he was getting help for his jaw right babe? And I was asking everyone where you were and no one knew :'[

Baby! I had the weirdesttt dream, kay well I guess our grade was on a field trip to the space staion, and there they had this hugeeee roller coastor (almost like superman but not as big) anywho a lot of us went on and we went on a few times before something went wrong right babe. Well at hone point my seat beat like came off and we were nearinglike a loop so I was like ohhhh shitt and like I was some rope outta nowhere and tie myself down but like there was the whole group of three that just flew outta there seats and died? Well jon was one of em but he just had like a broken jaw somehow but I couldn't find you at allllll and I was panicinggg BIGGGGG time and I couldn't ask jon his you on in that row because he was getting help for his jaw right babe? And I was asking everyone where you were and no one knew :'[

:/ hello blog thing.
I guess that manny guy from the red socks is outta boston and going to LA. I miss her. Joey's like mad at me and just blah. July is ending :[, the month in which I cought me first fishy, the month that batman came out, the month of my girl's birthday, the month of gaby's birthday. School starts soon.I want school but part of me dosent. Want to know what my thoughts are like at this moment? Kay, well say I want to go outside "I wanna to outside and catalina" say I wanna listen to music, " I wanna liisten to catalina" say I wanna write, "I wanna write about catalina" say I wanna eat, "I wanna eat catalina" not like I would eatcha babe, its just that I miss you :/. Wonder what you ended up doing today, I went to joey's with jon. I hope to go to buried under sometime like tomorrow or the next day or the day after that one. I turned on the ac now so it won't be hot, I like sleeping when its cold. Guess em is hyper. I can't sleep. Ears are ringing, maybe she said my name :]

Bloggg,
Im getting sick of the same foods. Tryed calling but no luck. Mother got a job at the spainish tv staion. I've been listening to lotttt of the rasmus. :/ later folks

Listen to me now,
Wonder what she's doing,
I could most likely tell you wants on her mind and wants. This song is getting to me. Its call a The Dead Girl Epilogue. The lyrics are only a sentence but its touching, amazing, powerful, beautiful and tragic. Amazing how something so simple can do this to you. "soon the rain will wash away the sun, as I melt with you, I am ghost." I miss her, my primo manny and I texted back and forth today. He says his classes are hard. I want to get more comics tomorrow. Maybe I could maybe see her too? But she said she can't like do anythin all week. Who knows, maybe there can be a little time for me. Well im going to hit the hay I think or at least try. And you can get anything that I'll hug my pillow with the thought of my dearly beloved on my mind

*sigh* looks like my plans have gone down the drain for tonight. Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time, surely you can take some comfort knowing that your mine. But I call you babe <3 *hug* evrything will be okay, I learned that from my best friend. Well im going to look around the channels and see if I can find some flick to watch. Salazar out. <3 *kisses your hand and cheek*




And lips :]

bryan? you will never learn to the extent to which i loveyou...its more than that can only be shown. ivelove you more and longer my dear. i love you soooooo much<33333333:P

Hmmmmmm, money fairy?
I just found 11 bucks in me yearbook and I have noooo idea how it got there, I don't remmeber hiding cash in there. Hmmmmmmm........ was it you babe?

hey readers,
this the fourth,
happy birthday squirt =)
i forgot my phone in dad's car.
we went to boston to pick up calina =)
long car ride but we talked and listened to music and stuff.
damn like last night i had like four dreams. i miss family. it's gonna be like two years before i see them again. mi tia rita got the papers so now she can live in the states, uncle joe should be getting here tomorrow. joey says we're gonna work at a movie theater someday. somday, right babe?im sure you love the kitten now.finished the soda when i got home. what to know something? the first time i heard "home" by Daughtry i cryed. thoughts chopy. i woke up at eight o five. rush hour three is funny shit, ohhh and babe you gonna see what father added in me room =) cant feel it beat. numbers, no end to them. i remember a young stobborn boy who wanted them to end and tryed and tryed to find the last one. sorry folks not feeling it, axel over and out

Doozed off in the tank,
mom told me what you said when she was driving you home from saying goodbye <3 I love you catalina mckay. *kises your forehead, you know it* McKay owned

Remember the time we watched spiderman three?
You wore my stuff, member when we went to the mall? <3ed those times. Herrera out

Mama!! Guess what?!?!
Ily :]

Two guys here thought I go to their school because they saw me at the school before. So I look olddddd lol

I don't like how clothes fit me :[ at times I wish I were smaller, less wide. Well this is my body, its all I got. Only one I'l be getting. I feel so akward and out of place. Later

motorcycle for bryan?
ive been looking at the 2008 GSX-R1000
and 2008 GSX-R750. prettyful bikes, plus they
are fast =) maybe?

Ahhhhhhhhhh......
Umm yeahh, how's it going?
Lovely day we're having huh? Umm umm later! :/

remined me of how bgaby had those pictures of batgirl

whatever she draws, happens.

draw me something babe

hey readers,
it's be again, bryan =p.
well yesterday was nice, i had like the bestest burrito i had in a while.
in new hevean, right on the water. im listening to locked up by akon. i like rap and hip hop like almost as much as i like my normal stuff. so its set in stone that mother and ujen are gonna go to cancone. i cant spell but you get the picture right? she would see it. well its mnot that long now. whats axel to me? the side that always finds questions, the one that can be anything and believe it he's it. the writer. if im like in ct i tell people im bryan but if i were to travel and never see those pople again i'd be axel. well now its where'd you go. bye people

Yeah, this album is dedicated to all the teachers that told me
I'd never amount to nothin', to all the people that lived above the
buildings that I was hustlin' in front of that called the police on
me when I was just tryin' to make some money to feed my daughters,
and all the niggaz in the struggle, you know what I'm sayin'?

Uh-ha, it's all good baby bay-bee, uh

[Verse One:]

It was all a dream
I used to read Word Up magazine
Salt'n'Pepa and Heavy D up in the limousine
Hangin' pictures on my wall
Every Saturday Rap Attack, Mr. Magic, Marley Marl
I let my tape rock 'til my tape popped
Smokin' weed and bamboo, sippin' on private stock
Way back, when I had the red and black lumberjack
With the hat to match
Remember Rappin' Duke, duh-ha, duh-ha
You never thought that hip hop would take it this far
Now I'm in the limelight 'cause I rhyme tight
Time to get paid, blow up like the World Trade
Born sinner, the opposite of a winner
Remember when I used to eat sardines for dinner
Peace to Ron G, Brucey B, Kid Capri
Funkmaster Flex, Lovebug Starsky
I'm blowin' up like you thought I would
Call the crib, same number same hood
It's all good

Uh, and if you don't know, now you know, nigga, uh

[Chorus:]

You know very well who you are
Don't let em hold you down, reach for the stars
You had a go, but not that many
'cause you're the only one I'll give you good and plenty

[Verse Two:]

I made the change from a common thief
To up close and personal with Robin Leach
And I'm far from cheap, I smoke skunk with my peeps all day
Spread love, it's the Brooklyn way
The Moet and Alize keep me pissy
Girls used to diss me
Now they write letters 'cause they miss me
I never thought it could happen, this rappin' stuff
I was too used to packin' gats and stuff
Now honies play me close like butter played toast
From the Mississippi down to the east coast
Condos in Queens, indo for weeks
Sold out seats to hear Biggie Smalls speak
Livin' life without fear
Puttin' 5 karats in my baby girl's ears
Lunches, brunches, interviews by the pool
Considered a fool 'cause I dropped out of high school
Stereotypes of a black male misunderstood
And it's still all good

Uh...and if you don't know, now you know, nigga

[Verse Three:]

Super Nintendo, Sega Genesis
When I was dead broke, man I couldn't picture this
50 inch screen, money green leather sofa
Got two rides, a limousine with a chauffeur
Phone bill about two G's flat
No need to worry, my accountant handles that
And my whole crew is loungin'
Celebratin' every day, no more public housin'
Thinkin' back on my one-room shack
Now my mom pimps a Ac' with minks on her back
And she loves to show me off, of course
Smiles every time my face is up in The Source
We used to fuss when the landlord dissed us
No heat, wonder why Christmas missed us
Birthdays was the worst days
Now we sip champagne when we thirst-ay
Uh, damn right I like the life I live
'Cause I went from negative to positive
And it's all...

(It's all good)"




[Jay-Z] It was all a dream
[scratched simultaneously: "It was all a dream" - B.I.G.]

[Faith Evans + (Jay-Z)]
Last night I had a dream
Thoughts was racin through my head (it was all a dream)
Felt so real to me
This is what was said..

[Jay-Z]
Had a dream I said, bout who he said?
Bout B.I.G. I said, that's big he said
Dig he said, proceed he said
Indeed I said, so - breathe I did
Don't repeat what I say I said, he said nothin
He agreed with his head, he just nodded like this
What I believe to be a yes I re-peated what was said
It came to me like a .. well as even I said
"You feel playboy," was the greeting he said
First thing I wanted to know, what's the reason he was dead?
"More money, more problems, better believe it," he said
"Careful what you wish for you might receive it," he said
I see I said, jealousy I said
Got the whole industry mad at me I said
Then B.I. said, "Hov' remind yourself
nobody built like you, you designed yourself"
I agree I said, my one of a kind self
Get stoned every day like Jesus did
What he said, I said, has been said before
"Just keep doin your thing," he said, say no more

[Faith Evans]
Was it all a dream - tell me
Was it all a dream, was it a dream
Was it all a dre-eeee-eeeee-eeam
I gotta know ("It was all a dream")
Was it all a dream - was it a dream
Was it all a dream, a dream
Was it all a dre-eeee-eeeee-eeam

[Notorious B.I.G.]
It was all a dream, I used to read Word Up magazine
Salt'n'Pepa and Heavy D up in the limousine
Hangin pictures on my wall
Every Saturday, "Rap Attack," Mr. Magic, Marley Marl
I let my tape rock 'til my tape popped
Smokin weed and bamboo, sippin on private stock
Way back, when I had the red and black lumberjack
with the hat to match
Remember Rappin' Duke? "Duh-ha, duh-ha"
You never thought that hip-hop would take it this far
Now I'm in the limelight cause I rhyme tight
Time to get paid, blow up like the ("World Trade")
Born sinner, the opposite of a winner
Remember when I used to eat sardines for dinner
Peace to Ron G, Brucey B, Kid Capri
Funkmaster Flex, Lovebug Starsky
I'm blowin up like you thought I would
Call the crib, same number same hood, it's all good
Uhh, and if you don't know, now you know, nigga

[Faith Evans]
Was it all a dream - tell me
Was it all a dream, was it a dream
Was it all a dre-eeee-eeeee-eeam
I gotta know ("It was all a dream")
Was it all a dream - was it a dream
Was it all a dream, a dream
Was it all a dre-eeee-eeeee-eeam

("It was all.. a dream")
("It was all..")
("It was all.. a dream")
("It was all a dream")
("It was all.. a dream")
("It was all..")
("It was all.. a dream")

[the beat drops out and Jay-Z raps the next part acapella]

[Jay-Z]
I see I said, jealousy I said
Got the whole industry mad at me I said
Then B.I. said, "Hov' remind yourself
nobody built like you, you designed yourself"
I agree I said, my one of a kind self
Get stoned every day like Jesus did
What he said, I said, has been said before
"Just keep doin your thing," he said, say no more

Vain's blood weak

Nightmare,
She wouldn't,
She loves me.
Well it was like four am
When I first started writing but I pressed the back button my my sidekick so I lost all I wrote :/. Since january 1500 people have been killed at home. In my city... where my family is :[ yesterday they killed a police commander.
Father will come at seven to get me. I picked that up from my cousin manny. He calls his dad "father" so when I don't call em papi I call him father. Now its five. So its 11 there. Almost lunch time, she 's having something to eat while im asleep, she see's the moon while I miss the sun. I can hear a plane flying overhead. Im thinking of the dream I once had, of you and me in gotham, on swings. Im thinking of if your like close and my heart pounds that you can hear it and your head dosent even have to me agaist my chest. And babe, spain OWNED russia. La raza is super good at socor, but I call soccor the game of the brazilans because they always win that silly soccor cup. Now I sound like an ass. Just a seven days left... JUST? *sigh* I wonder if she's ever how I am. She's super busy tho, maybe I've been pushed aside from her mind. No. This is the point where you would say no like your dead cereal and hit me. I needed that. Now im thinking of our laugh when I told you I was so bored that I cut the grass willingly. All of it, even the back. I put things in old dc shoe boxes, on's to the left of my room (next to my slipers) and the other one is under my bed. How's german air seem like? Sounds crazy but like everywhere far someone goes the air their has its own kick to it. In halloween four little jamie says that prayer. The one poeple use to say because people with dying of diease in thir sleep.... now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord to keepy, and if I should die before I wake I pray the lord my soul to take. Hey! Where my tatto? I guess it was just in my nightmare, but like I was the same in it tho..... I had the wings. I wore these jeans in pittsburgh. Well I must get ready, axel/bryan out? Or whatever I am. This is. You would say im yours here <3

Vain's blood weak

Nightmare :[
It's only 4:27.
Must get ahold of myself
Bye people

want a salazar? well imma the only one lft and im TAKEN =p and theres only one way to make other salazars

=p i feel like a slut because of my headline but imma all calina's <3333

mom thought i was in high school?
mom thinks john still likes you? that its ovious.
she swears you droped the note on purpose =)

i thought dad was born in Hungry and dad was like noope,
he was born in turkey, so i said thats what i said no? when your hungry you eat turkey so same thing lol.

see babe people like you.

i cant believe jen's mother.
now i want to believe that my mother is really a white lady that lives in brazil.

hey would you like to go to six flas on june 18th?
yeah now that i think of it i think he does too,
i would say more but hell i should have even said what mom thinks.
now im thinking of how cool your dad is.
hmmm maybe my real mother is a writer, maybe thats where i get it from.
maybe she studders like me. maybe she has a heart like mine. maybe her family is looking for me. maybe she has that thing in her head that will alomost believe anything like me, maybe she can connect things that have NOTHING to do with one an other like i do. maybe my real mother named me something else! hahaha im lame. just a salazar boy. the last of my blood, bryan agaist the world. strange thing is that axel just seems like a pen name to me. the brick is just there, when i have an awesome thought i type it down. well i just got something on my phone that makes my entries safer, that you have to type in a password to see. im wearing my hat, hat aside, parted in the middle, both eyes set on the key board. and youd think since i have my eyes on the keys that i would have a spelling error huh? im wondering mom found a way to get the pictures. mom and dad like me i guiess kitten. dad told me that they like love me lol. well mi tia is listening to her ipod and uncle is playing pool with victor. your at amy's party. whoaaa this new journal thingy is awesomeeeeee. well im listening to time of your life. mi tia thinks im handsome, some girl at the mall was eyeing me. wierdddddddd. im mckay owned. fully. <3 them. i loved last night. being with you. ha you changed into my things. babe? i like forgot sunday was father's day :/. only like come over if its 38647864327863296% with everyone. you gonna make me go on batman if you can come to six flags with me? =D only for you i would. my first roller coaster ride it would be. i wonder whats on your mind at this really second. comment this?

bryan over and out <3

Time of your life,
high school, how long ive waited for it.
i member once telling doug that life starts there.
i was wrong. the dance was okay, i cant believe i cryed. and now im thinking of when i cryed the first time and you thought i was playing, thought i was just not blinking. i love you babe. my mother grrrrrrr. guess mom wont text back. do i hear tunder? idk babe. i loved last night. the titanic song(my heart will go on) makes me feel at peace. mellow. i miss gaby? that funny? idk she's cool, that time she felt like family was like whoaaaa. well i gotta run, later <3 McKay owned

AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?: ahh nope

Ever been in a car wreck?: nope

Were you popular in high school?: not in high school yet

Have you ever been on a blind date?: nope

Are looks important?: always have to look your best no? but there is this one girl and she always looks great =)

Do
By what age would you like to be married?: 21-30


Have you ever made a mistake?: everyone has no?

Are you a good tipper?: four bucks good?


Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?: nope that'd be weird

Have you ever peed in public?: not with people looking lol

What song do you want played at your funeral?: who'd you be today by kenny chesney or from where you are by lifehouse

Would you tell your parents if you were gay?: never, dont think they'd take it well

What would your last meal be before getting executed?: fruit, lots of it

Beatles or Stones?: thats hard bu t i think imma have to side with the stones, beatles are good tho

If you had to pick one person on earth to die, who?: who am i to play god?

Beer, wine or hard liquor?: umm which ever makes me like happy, something i can enjoy and have lots of and not =get tooo messed up. if i wanna forget than give me hard liquor

Do you have any phobias?: not sure, i just dont want to be alone

What are your plans for the future?: i want to do great in hs, make the football team, go to pittsburgh u and study, and maybe become a firefighter, and marry and have kids

Do you walk around the house naked?: you wish! =p

If you were an animal what would you be?: hawk or wolf

Would you rather be blind or deaf?: deaf? thats so hard to pick? i wouldnt be able to see her face, and i wouldnt get to hear my kid's laughter

Do you have any special talents?: yes i do, if i love you i wont give up, my heart has no limits

What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?: cheak the cell, then eat than musiccc

Do you like horror or comedy?: Horror!!!!

Are you missing anyone?: family, not a hour goes by that i dont think of them, i wish i could take her to see and meet my faily but esi miss my familt and spening time with people


Where do you want to live when you are old?: somewhere beautiful

Who is the person you can count on the most?: catalina

If you could date any celebrity past or present, who would it be?: call me a lyer but i wouldnt wanna date any, i want a real person that would feel my struggles and just be klike real

What did you dream last night?: i didnt have a dream last night but my last dream was of a race, i had a picture of my children and wife on the thing that covers you from the sun


What is your favorite sport to watch?: Steeler football baby! <33

Are you named after anyone?: im really named after a singer named bryan adams, look em up, he's good

What is your favorite alcoholic drink?: bacardi silver

Non alcoholic drink?: smoothies or mango juice, or a drink called naked

Have you ever been in love?: madly in love at the moment with miss catalina mckay <3
i adore my girlfriend, my partner

Do you sing in the shower?: i sing alot period but yess i do, who dosent?

Have you ever been arrested?: No

What is your favorite Holiday?: Halloween or chritmas

Would you ever get plastic surgery?: god made me this way and this way i shall stay so nopee

Have you ever caught a fish?: like ive never been fishingm take me someday

smoothy

This may sound a wee bit odd but like if I could taste your scent It'd taste like the smoothy I got today babe.
High meadows has amzing kids, I didn't reach the tippy top of the rock well but I tryed. I like being in the pool with everyone, calina looked greattttt. She made me eat a lot and drink but it was kay, glad she did, she's like a mom, imangen the mother she'll be :]. Even laying down in the grass was cool. Mr.b got a sciance sign for a tat, ahhhh im so nevousss! But It'd be fine. Got a widdle burned. Hey babe i got something to show ya!! =DD. You'll see, well im dead beat, imma watch man vs wild and then go to bed <3 now im thinking of when I jumped in your bed and covered up. Later catalina, I love you

This is for Kairi and about her waiting for Sora to come back to her,
please bear with me as I have a limited number of Kingdom Hearts clips, but enjoy, tell me what you think

Lyrics

If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?
Never thought things would change, hold me tight
Please don't say again that you have to go

A bitter thought
I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so violence since you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

If I had told you
You would've listened
You had stayed
You would be here forever
Never went away

It would never have been all the same
All our time what have been in vain
Cause you had to go

The sweetest thought
Had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our moments keep me warm
When you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you