scream your heart out with me?

ahhh i want to fucking scream!
i want my world to stop spining for just this once.
so i can collect and piece the broken parts of me together.
i miss cat soo much, i wonder what she thinks of when she's quite.
she rarely talks. but it's okay because when i see her it's different ya know? i wonder who i'll become. i wonder who will be holding my hand in a year. i wish she would open up and let me in but i can see why she wouldnt want to. times like these is when i think about that night where i wanted to end it all, the only place that sent me was ccmc. i don't want to be alone. catalina rose mckay i love you. im lost. please come out and find me