im slowly getting over this, for far too long i kept my memories in cells. It's time to set them free and confront them one by one

i wrote this not too long ago :(

I want you to bleed the tears iv cried,
I want you to cry the blood iv bled,
I want you to lose everything you ever cared for,
I want your heart to stop beating,
I want you to pick up that blade,
I want you to fear the things I fear,
I want you to see life though my broken eyes,
I want you to lose control of everything in your life,
I want you to be destroyed and on your knees begging for death,
When its all said and done then you can join me among the dead,

Is it too much to ask for to be just like me?