Friday, November 30, 2007
looking
over what you said, :) i love you <4
this is random but i keep thinking " i swear i wont tell em your name"
this is random but i keep thinking " i swear i wont tell em your name"
wow me
i can't spell right now and everything is blah, ya know?
tonight...... was tonight i guess. well blah :(
tonight...... was tonight i guess. well blah :(
tonight
was okay? on the way out i was thinking of when robin died and it made me so sad (yeah im a dork) once again i looked soo fucking ugly :( dyllan ran up to me and told me that everyone missed me at the mall and he huged me and held me to show me o'ryan :) i never saw the big dipper, leo, and o'ryan before. so that was nice, but cat took the day by telling them to play iris even tho they only played a little over a mint of it, and when she ran up and held my hand but i knew what she wanted but it was still nice. blah. love me?
make my heart beat faster?
All day i havent been able to feel it beat :(
well this sucks and just blah :/
well this sucks and just blah :/
dance tonight, 29/11?
well i got home not too long alond and i feel so dead,
and gosh i fucking hateee all that mainstream SHIT they play on the radio.
im listening to name once again and just blah ya know? im thinking of all the bad and it makes me blue :/ i tryed on what i want to wear to the dance and i hated the way i looked, well i hope they don't. all the if's are going by my head and they suck :( i hope i don't mess up tonight.
and gosh i fucking hateee all that mainstream SHIT they play on the radio.
im listening to name once again and just blah ya know? im thinking of all the bad and it makes me blue :/ i tryed on what i want to wear to the dance and i hated the way i looked, well i hope they don't. all the if's are going by my head and they suck :( i hope i don't mess up tonight.
i love this part of the song
And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em' your name
see you at the dance, i hope i don't look like trash ;/
<3 you. bye
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em' your name
see you at the dance, i hope i don't look like trash ;/
<3 you. bye
Thursday, November 29, 2007
fuck this
my heart sank and i feel like crying again ;'(
i listening to name and it's making it so hard not to cry.
well reading what you wrote wasnt a waste of time, i also don't know where the '";:?., always go (gosh now im crying) dance tomorrow huh? well i'll be there,
i listening to name and it's making it so hard not to cry.
well reading what you wrote wasnt a waste of time, i also don't know where the '";:?., always go (gosh now im crying) dance tomorrow huh? well i'll be there,
Random facts about me
my first word was "luna" or somthing veay close to it because my dad was Stubborn and everynight before i went to sleep he would repeat it to me for a few time before i went to sleep. luna is spanish for moon.
i never was as good as jen when it came to learning, she picked up english quick and i didn't to this day when im frustrated i speek perfect spanish and i surpise myself.
im not a big fan of shirts so i take mine off as soon as i can.
i could do more but jen's calling me
i never was as good as jen when it came to learning, she picked up english quick and i didn't to this day when im frustrated i speek perfect spanish and i surpise myself.
im not a big fan of shirts so i take mine off as soon as i can.
i could do more but jen's calling me
Depression, it happened to the best of us :'(
On October 3, 1849, Poe was found on the streets of Baltimore delirious and "in great distress, and... in need of immediate assistance," according to the man who found him, Joseph W. Walker. He was taken to the Washington College Hospital, where he died early on the morning of October 7. Poe was never coherent long enough to explain how he came to be in his dire condition, and, oddly, was wearing clothes that were not his own. Poe is said to have repeatedly called out the name "Reynolds" on the night before his death. Some sources say Poe's final words were "Lord help my poor soul."[37] Poe suffered from bouts of depression and madness, and he may have attempted suicide in 1848.[38]
Poe finally died on Sunday, October 7, 1849 at 5:00 in the morning.[37] The precise cause of Poe's death remains a mystery.[24]
In May 1890, Van Gogh left the clinic and went to the physician Dr. Paul Gachet, in Auvers-sur-Oise near Paris, where he was closer to his brother Theo. Dr. Gachet had been recommended to him by Pissarro, as he had previously treated several artists and was an amateur artist himself. Van Gogh's first impression was that Gachet was "sicker than I am, I think, or shall we say just as much."[68] Later Van Gogh did two portraits of Gachet in oils, as well as a third—his only etching, and in all three emphasis is on Gachet's melancholic disposition. In his last weeks at Saint-Rémy Van Gogh's thoughts had been returning to his "memories of the North",[69] and several of the approximately 70 oils he painted during his 70 days in Auvers-sur-Oise—such as The Church at Auvers—are reminiscent of northern scenes.
Wheat Field with Crows—an example of the unusual double square canvas-size he used in the last weeks of his life—with its turbulent intensity is often, but mistakenly, thought to be Van Gogh's last work (Jan Hulsker lists seven paintings after it). Daubigny's Garden is a more likely candidate. There are also seemingly unfinished paintings, such as Thatched Cottages by a Hill.
Van Gogh's depression deepened, and on 27 July 1890, at the age of 37, he walked into the fields and shot himself in the chest with a revolver. Without realizing that he was fatally wounded he returned to the Ravoux Inn where he died in his bed two days later. Theo hastened to be at his side and reported his last words as "La tristesse durera toujours" (French for "the sadness will last forever"). Vincent was buried at the cemetery of Auvers-sur-Oise.[70] Theo had contracted syphilis—though this was not admitted by the family for many years—and not long after Vincent's death, was himself admitted to hospital. He was not able to come to terms with the grief of his brother's absence, and died six months later on 25 January at Utrecht. In 1914 Theo's body was exhumed and re-buried beside Vincent.
Poe finally died on Sunday, October 7, 1849 at 5:00 in the morning.[37] The precise cause of Poe's death remains a mystery.[24]
In May 1890, Van Gogh left the clinic and went to the physician Dr. Paul Gachet, in Auvers-sur-Oise near Paris, where he was closer to his brother Theo. Dr. Gachet had been recommended to him by Pissarro, as he had previously treated several artists and was an amateur artist himself. Van Gogh's first impression was that Gachet was "sicker than I am, I think, or shall we say just as much."[68] Later Van Gogh did two portraits of Gachet in oils, as well as a third—his only etching, and in all three emphasis is on Gachet's melancholic disposition. In his last weeks at Saint-Rémy Van Gogh's thoughts had been returning to his "memories of the North",[69] and several of the approximately 70 oils he painted during his 70 days in Auvers-sur-Oise—such as The Church at Auvers—are reminiscent of northern scenes.
Wheat Field with Crows—an example of the unusual double square canvas-size he used in the last weeks of his life—with its turbulent intensity is often, but mistakenly, thought to be Van Gogh's last work (Jan Hulsker lists seven paintings after it). Daubigny's Garden is a more likely candidate. There are also seemingly unfinished paintings, such as Thatched Cottages by a Hill.
Van Gogh's depression deepened, and on 27 July 1890, at the age of 37, he walked into the fields and shot himself in the chest with a revolver. Without realizing that he was fatally wounded he returned to the Ravoux Inn where he died in his bed two days later. Theo hastened to be at his side and reported his last words as "La tristesse durera toujours" (French for "the sadness will last forever"). Vincent was buried at the cemetery of Auvers-sur-Oise.[70] Theo had contracted syphilis—though this was not admitted by the family for many years—and not long after Vincent's death, was himself admitted to hospital. He was not able to come to terms with the grief of his brother's absence, and died six months later on 25 January at Utrecht. In 1914 Theo's body was exhumed and re-buried beside Vincent.
Damn
i have hunreds of "sad" songs on my ipod and VERY few happy songs,
idk, it just wowed me when i look at all my songs. well i like this song
idk, it just wowed me when i look at all my songs. well i like this song
Name
And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
'Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em' your name
And scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are
We grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
Reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em' your name
I won't tell em' your name
Mmm, mmm, mmm,
I won't tell em' your name… Ow!
I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down,
And I won't tell em your name
well today was strange, i felt so disconnected. i mean i always do but the past two days were different ya know? i feel like non of this is real, so i hurt myself to mkae sure this is real and it was. i cryed in mrs.ryan office and let her know everything. she knows me well as i know her. we can finish eachothers sentences. when she got that pjone call her said so much. it was rather funny. well im going for a walk. love always~ bryan
I still can't turn away
'Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em' your name
And scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are
We grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
Reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em' your name
I won't tell em' your name
Mmm, mmm, mmm,
I won't tell em' your name… Ow!
I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down,
And I won't tell em your name
well today was strange, i felt so disconnected. i mean i always do but the past two days were different ya know? i feel like non of this is real, so i hurt myself to mkae sure this is real and it was. i cryed in mrs.ryan office and let her know everything. she knows me well as i know her. we can finish eachothers sentences. when she got that pjone call her said so much. it was rather funny. well im going for a walk. love always~ bryan
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
If theres anything that i understand it's
why the cunning warrior attacks the heart,
i rather have him attack my body and leave me battered and bruised
but thats not the way of the one whom wheals the sword :(
i knew this for a long while but i didn't want to come to ends with it (sorry if this dosen't make sense) i feel so ugly when im around her, i wonder how i look to her, i wonder if im good enough for her, i know the war within myself will never end but as long as i can breath i'll never stop fighting. i use to be blooddrunk but i'll learned that if you go out seeking blood, you'll become somthing that you can't controll. Blood for tears it's only fair. I remember the depth of my Grief and sorrow and how i felt the guilt of the death of a friend... oh the guilt. those fourteen months were the worse times of my life. Now that im "better" im just trying to understand. im starting to cry once again :/ im such a baby. the guilt kept me up at night and i couldn't eat. It got to the point where when i looked at myself in the mirror and said my name none of it felt real. truths is that i still havent gotten over it. Well i just want to say that i love you, i wish you could place your hand over my slow beating heart and look into my eyes filled with tears and see that i adore you catalina. <3 my heart wants to say somthing but i don't know how to say it. but it's a good thing so no need to worry. love always, bryan
i rather have him attack my body and leave me battered and bruised
but thats not the way of the one whom wheals the sword :(
i knew this for a long while but i didn't want to come to ends with it (sorry if this dosen't make sense) i feel so ugly when im around her, i wonder how i look to her, i wonder if im good enough for her, i know the war within myself will never end but as long as i can breath i'll never stop fighting. i use to be blooddrunk but i'll learned that if you go out seeking blood, you'll become somthing that you can't controll. Blood for tears it's only fair. I remember the depth of my Grief and sorrow and how i felt the guilt of the death of a friend... oh the guilt. those fourteen months were the worse times of my life. Now that im "better" im just trying to understand. im starting to cry once again :/ im such a baby. the guilt kept me up at night and i couldn't eat. It got to the point where when i looked at myself in the mirror and said my name none of it felt real. truths is that i still havent gotten over it. Well i just want to say that i love you, i wish you could place your hand over my slow beating heart and look into my eyes filled with tears and see that i adore you catalina. <3 my heart wants to say somthing but i don't know how to say it. but it's a good thing so no need to worry. love always, bryan
your the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and i don't wanna go home right now
im singing my prayer to try to ease the pain but
it isn't working ;'( im starting to cry once again. im sorry
it isn't working ;'( im starting to cry once again. im sorry
My Last Mistake
I dont always wear the right clothes,
And I know sometimes my feelings are hard to show,
But if you're beside me, I'm ok.
I dont always say the right words,
And I know sometimes my stories already been heard.
but if you're beside me, I'm ok.
I'm ok.
If you're beside me, I'm ok.
I'm ok.
And I know sometimes my feelings are hard to show,
But if you're beside me, I'm ok.
I dont always say the right words,
And I know sometimes my stories already been heard.
but if you're beside me, I'm ok.
I'm ok.
If you're beside me, I'm ok.
I'm ok.
im so confused
Give me meaning?
Give me a reason to fight?
Give me a reason to live?
Please, i don't know what to do :'(
Give me a reason to fight?
Give me a reason to live?
Please, i don't know what to do :'(
i believe
~*~*~*~ To the lovers who have loved, lost and then lost again, keep playing the game like a pro. love is a battlefield, and your heart is the deadliest weapon. but you depend on its strength to make it through. the weak heart is the heavy heart that slows you down. the heavy heart is the slow heart that stops its beating. and when the battle is over, think to yourself. have you won the war? love is the battle, life is the war. it's just the neverending steady rhythm caged in your chest that keeps you alive throughout the day. it's the rhythm that quickens in similar moments throughout the life, whether it be for the love or the loss. or the fear of the fall. but it keeps on beating and waiting for that helping hand. that warm smile. that knight in shining armour or that princess that will wait a thousand lifetimes for true love. those who believe in love will never lose a battle, because the heart is the strong believer. will your heart be the deadliest weapon in battles? will you win the war? to the lovers who have loved, lost and then lost again, flow with the hearts rhythm. spread the word. *hold your head high heavy hearts* repost this on your blogs if you believe. ~*~*~*~
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
jrvnre
i feel so bad :(
i always do but i try hard to focus hard
on silly dreams and thoughts but when it comes down
to reality im nothing. i want to say so much more but it wouldn't matter.
all i want you to know is that catalina i love you <3 :'(
i always do but i try hard to focus hard
on silly dreams and thoughts but when it comes down
to reality im nothing. i want to say so much more but it wouldn't matter.
all i want you to know is that catalina i love you <3 :'(
This sums it up nicely :(
Dreams of earth quakes
Dreams of hurricanes
Dreams of pouring rain
Dreams of tidal waves (to wash us all away)
Dreams of guns blazed
Dreams of fire rage
Dreams of swollen graves
Dreams of hollow pain
All gone
No more fallen
No more enemies
No more casualties
No more dreams
Fall into sleep, fall into me
I have a dream,
But nobody cares, nobody wants to listen
Fall into sleep, fall into me
Hang onto a dream, that nobody wants
Nobody cares anymore
Dreams of mourning grief
Dreams of disbelief
Dreams of tragedy
Dreams of our disease (to take us all away)
Dreams of fidelity
Dreams of inner peace
Dreams of loyalty
Dreams of unity
All gone
All gone
Fall into sleep, fall into me
I have a dream,
But nobody cares, nobody wants to listen
Fall into sleep, fall into me
Hang onto a dream, that nobody wants
Nobody cares anymore
The angels are injured
Fall with broken burning wings
Are we dead inside, are we blind
We cant keep moving forward
Backwards with closed eyes
We're losing sight
All lost inside
No more fallen
No more enemies
Fall into sleep, fall into me,
I have a dream
But nobody cares, nobody wants to listen
Fall into sleep, fall into me,
Hang onto a dream
That nobody wants, nobody cares
Nobody wants, nobody cares anymore
All gone
All gone
All gone
(All gone)
i still have the glow thingys from the game :D
i froze it and broke it again and it glows reallyyy brightttt :D <3
bfbeuvcnbew
i wanna call but i think it's rude to call after eight,
well i can go on and on but im gonna put it nice and simple because im sure you don't wanna hear everything thats on my mind. i can't wait to see you tomorrow!! (i hope i don't look like shit)
well i can go on and on but im gonna put it nice and simple because im sure you don't wanna hear everything thats on my mind. i can't wait to see you tomorrow!! (i hope i don't look like shit)
penn state (not the school)
Is hugeeee, I took a three hour nap and im still here :/ my sidekick is gonna die ;( that means I can't blog well I wondwr if anyone read what I wrote, bye?
hello
Well im on my way back to CT now, I place my steelers blacket over jen because she's sleeping so I have a good feeling in my heart. God yesterday I looked into the eyes of a blind man, just knowing that he couldn't look into mine was one of the saddnest things I ever had to think. Im trying to be the best person I can possiblely be but dose it even show? My mind is always racing jumping from thought to thought, it seems like I can never get anything done because I lose myself within my memories and a reality that dosent exist. (Dose that even make sence?) I can't even go through a day without crying :'( I use to be much worse but now im trying to figure out everything and understand as much as I can. I feel like I know nothing but mrs. Ryan always tells me that way more mature for my age. Its interesting looking at everyone and everyone seems so happy and carefree but not me, why's that? Do I just have to stop thinking about why and details? Im not sure. Im listening to ohio is for lovers and its so sad when I hear casey scream he's part of the song :( I wonder why sierra and marissa look up to me, I posted what she said before and just wow, I did all that for them huh? They call me wise because of what I went though (sorry about my spelling) but damn I don't know how to put this. Nevermind I guess. We still have many hours of driving left. Like six hours :/ my thoughts are so messy. Will I make my mark? "You can have my empire of dirt" Johnny Cash. Why is that when you say goodbye you feel like saying sorry? It's true huh? I always feel so sorry when I must leave you. If your reading this is it a waste of time, do you ever wake up reaching out for me? I have so many questions on my mind but when I answer them, a new question rises and not all my questions have answers :( close the door and leave me inside, I miss the fireworks burning in those eyes, remember the the songs we use to sing? Come augus I'll still be singing (im just writing down some of the lyrics of songs im listening to on my ipod) so this is a big waste of time. I feel so small and lost. Im just a boy, a boy.... that's all I am. But I love her like she wouldn't believe it, I feel like a retard at school, I feel like everything I do comes out wrong or she dosent like it. I don't want to force a kiss apon her lips. I love you. Now im thinking of when you kissed me at the dance, and we kissed one an other for a while :) and when I put my arm around you at the dance <3 well I could make this blog is long it could reach from maine to cali so here is when I read. Farewell
Monday, November 26, 2007
I must look reallly gay
I was gonna call you back cat but the rest of us wanted to walk the streets of pittsburgh so I had to tag along. Post somthing?
The Great City Of Steel
feels so friendly and you can soooo tell everyone lives for the steelers, its awesome. I just got done jumping up and down on my hotel bed! ;D it was soooo much fun, I can't wait night to see the city light up. Cat pleaseee call me? <3
I never
Been this cold in my life! I feel like im gonna puke :( I just feel so bad and im cold to the touch. The game disapointed me but hell we won. I miss you so much cat :( there wasn't a moment that passed me by that I didn't think of you
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Off to the Steel City i go...
well in six hours to Pittsburgh i go,
i miss you so fuckingg much :/ i can't wait to see
you on wensday (gosh wensday is soooooo far away, im sorry)
well im gonna play bob enters the center of the earch for a short while and
call it a night, wait nope i'll read IT instead because i brought it home! :D yeah thats what i'll do. well farewell *kisses necklace* <3
i miss you so fuckingg much :/ i can't wait to see
you on wensday (gosh wensday is soooooo far away, im sorry)
well im gonna play bob enters the center of the earch for a short while and
call it a night, wait nope i'll read IT instead because i brought it home! :D yeah thats what i'll do. well farewell *kisses necklace* <3
im stunned
i can't believe he died :(
i started to cry when i heard
the news :'( gosh this fucking sucks.
well besides that my day was fine but damn
i miss her so much :( well i have to get ready for tomorrow.
love always bryan <3
i started to cry when i heard
the news :'( gosh this fucking sucks.
well besides that my day was fine but damn
i miss her so much :( well i have to get ready for tomorrow.
love always bryan <3
Fuckkkkkkk
Casey why did you have to die????
i loved hearing your voice scream :'(
you'll be missed (i can't believe this :''(
RIP Casey Calvert <3
i loved hearing your voice scream :'(
you'll be missed (i can't believe this :''(
RIP Casey Calvert <3
wow
i played call of duty four for five hours stright last night,
thats crazyyy but it was funnnn. like getting all those head shots and shooting rpg's and spraying lead everywhereeeeeeee :D
thats crazyyy but it was funnnn. like getting all those head shots and shooting rpg's and spraying lead everywhereeeeeeee :D
Saturday, November 24, 2007
questions
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
bryan by/gf
02. how and where did we meet:
in gym i believe
03. what's my middle name:
Rose :)
04. how long have you known me:
well i knew who you were in sixth grade but we're on;y taken the time to get to know one an other from ;ate 9/7
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
your smile and your personality
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
i thought you were awfuly quite and i wondered why you were dead silent around me and what you thought of
07. my age:
13
08. birthday:
if my memory serves me well i believe it's june 15th and this is random but gaby's is the 4th of july
09. my favorite band at the moment?
MCR or escape the fate
10. color of eyes:
brown :)
11. do i have any siblings:
yupps
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
more than that hun
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
draw and listen to music
14. do you remember one of the first things I said to you:
if only mind wasnt racing i would remember
15. describe me in 3 words:
stunning
small (which is adorable)
creative
and soo much more :)
16. name 5 things i love:
music
friends
drawing
im guessing family
and me! :)
17. do you think i'm pretty:
pretty?? more like beautiful! <3
18. how would you describe me to someone:
:) i just wanna say amazing, end of story but i would have to say that she's quite at first but when you give her the time of day she'll certainly become one of the best things that will ever happen to you. she adorable and mine :)
19. even if your dating someone, if you weren't would you ever date me:
YES!
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
: x
21: what do you like most about me:
whats there not to like about you? but if i had to pick i few things that i like best about you is your laugh and your smile :)
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
something funn
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
well i wouldnt say pouring milk on a guy's head is a fight (high five by the way) :D
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
indeed i do
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
well you already have one really, Kat and i like it
26. What do you think my weakness is?
:/ i'll have to ask you
27. Do you think I'll get married?
yes
28. What makes me happy?
hanging out with emily and drawing
29. What makes me sad?
im not too sure :/
30. What reminds you of me?
your necklace and stars
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
well im giving you the best of me (even tho it isnt that great :() and you already have my heart
32. When's the last time you saw me?
two fridays ago :/
33. Do you think our relationship/friendship is getting stronger,
yups
weaker, or staying the same?
staying the same i guess? but in time we're get even stronger :)
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
yeah
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say
about you? already done
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
Vanilla because i like the taste but i like the taste of your lips better :)
37. What song(s) reminds you of me?
honestly it's hard not listening to a song and not thinking of you, but if i had to pick one song it would have to be Here (In Your Arms)
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
nothing, npthing at all.
39. even if your dating someone, Would you make a move on
me? it would be hard not to :)
40. Do I cross your mind at least one time a day?
babe, your always on my mind
bryan by/gf
02. how and where did we meet:
in gym i believe
03. what's my middle name:
Rose :)
04. how long have you known me:
well i knew who you were in sixth grade but we're on;y taken the time to get to know one an other from ;ate 9/7
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
your smile and your personality
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
i thought you were awfuly quite and i wondered why you were dead silent around me and what you thought of
07. my age:
13
08. birthday:
if my memory serves me well i believe it's june 15th and this is random but gaby's is the 4th of july
09. my favorite band at the moment?
MCR or escape the fate
10. color of eyes:
brown :)
11. do i have any siblings:
yupps
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
more than that hun
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
draw and listen to music
14. do you remember one of the first things I said to you:
if only mind wasnt racing i would remember
15. describe me in 3 words:
stunning
small (which is adorable)
creative
and soo much more :)
16. name 5 things i love:
music
friends
drawing
im guessing family
and me! :)
17. do you think i'm pretty:
pretty?? more like beautiful! <3
18. how would you describe me to someone:
:) i just wanna say amazing, end of story but i would have to say that she's quite at first but when you give her the time of day she'll certainly become one of the best things that will ever happen to you. she adorable and mine :)
19. even if your dating someone, if you weren't would you ever date me:
YES!
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
: x
21: what do you like most about me:
whats there not to like about you? but if i had to pick i few things that i like best about you is your laugh and your smile :)
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
something funn
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
well i wouldnt say pouring milk on a guy's head is a fight (high five by the way) :D
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
indeed i do
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
well you already have one really, Kat and i like it
26. What do you think my weakness is?
:/ i'll have to ask you
27. Do you think I'll get married?
yes
28. What makes me happy?
hanging out with emily and drawing
29. What makes me sad?
im not too sure :/
30. What reminds you of me?
your necklace and stars
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
well im giving you the best of me (even tho it isnt that great :() and you already have my heart
32. When's the last time you saw me?
two fridays ago :/
33. Do you think our relationship/friendship is getting stronger,
yups
weaker, or staying the same?
staying the same i guess? but in time we're get even stronger :)
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
yeah
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say
about you? already done
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
Vanilla because i like the taste but i like the taste of your lips better :)
37. What song(s) reminds you of me?
honestly it's hard not listening to a song and not thinking of you, but if i had to pick one song it would have to be Here (In Your Arms)
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
nothing, npthing at all.
39. even if your dating someone, Would you make a move on
me? it would be hard not to :)
40. Do I cross your mind at least one time a day?
babe, your always on my mind
i had a pretty sweet dream :)
i didn't wanna wake up from it,
well i fell asleep last night at like ten
andit's 6:23 now. <3 :)
well i fell asleep last night at like ten
andit's 6:23 now. <3 :)
Friday, November 23, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
read this
gosh, im so ( if i knew what i was i would say it here)
i wish i could be with her and just look into her eyes. :'(
i wish i could be with her and just look into her eyes. :'(
goshh i wish i had a little brotherr
one that was alwayyysss happyy and screams and is random as hell
and that'll play games with me. :/
and that'll play games with me. :/
grape koolaid :)
is my favorite drink :D
well no one is awake and im superrrrr
boredddd. jen's gonna wake up in an hour or two.
ah what a family day huh? well tomorrow is my birthday and i
don't want anything, i just wanna go back to school, wow did i say that?
well on monday going to pittsburgh and thats an eight hour drive :/, ah theres nothinggggg to do. i havent even touched my cell yet. uihnreivcnbr3iwnbvuir3wnvuir3wni cure my boredness?
well no one is awake and im superrrrr
boredddd. jen's gonna wake up in an hour or two.
ah what a family day huh? well tomorrow is my birthday and i
don't want anything, i just wanna go back to school, wow did i say that?
well on monday going to pittsburgh and thats an eight hour drive :/, ah theres nothinggggg to do. i havent even touched my cell yet. uihnreivcnbr3iwnbvuir3wnvuir3wni cure my boredness?
will you?
hi, answer these for me?
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. color of eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the first things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm pretty:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. even if your dating someone, if you weren't would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our relationship/friendship is getting stronger,
weaker, or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say
about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song(s) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. even if your dating someone, Would you make a move on
me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least one time a day?
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. color of eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the first things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm pretty:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. even if your dating someone, if you weren't would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our relationship/friendship is getting stronger,
weaker, or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say
about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song(s) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. even if your dating someone, Would you make a move on
me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least one time a day?
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that works, i keep make blogs bevause im sooo bored and blah,
i feel so lonely :/ i'm looking at my fallen scar :/ i remember this
When tragedy befalls you
Don't let them bring you down
Love can cure your problems
You're so lucky that I'm around
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart
(Pete Townshend) well for the most part im gonna just try to close my eyes and let this day pass me by.
i feel so lonely :/ i'm looking at my fallen scar :/ i remember this
When tragedy befalls you
Don't let them bring you down
Love can cure your problems
You're so lucky that I'm around
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart
(Pete Townshend) well for the most part im gonna just try to close my eyes and let this day pass me by.
thanksgiving? today?? or as erica calls it fat ass day
wow im so use to it being on my birthday,
well there isnt' anythingggg good on :/
well there isnt' anythingggg good on :/
good morning
*yawnn* it's ville's birthday :)
well i can't stop thinking of you, one week is far too long :(
well im the only one up so im gonna go watch a movie. sidekick it
well i can't stop thinking of you, one week is far too long :(
well im the only one up so im gonna go watch a movie. sidekick it
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Dear Blog
Well im watching dan in real life again and im so sleepy. Im holding on to a tooth, it's warm, when I close my eyes I can see past moments. I told jen everything really, it felt good to because I've been wanting to tell her. Gosh watching this movie is well I don't know, a love movie and my little one isn't here with me :\ well she is but I would do anything to hold her in these arms. Well the movie is almost over and when I get home im gonna go to sleep? Im not sure if I'll even post this because there just random thoughts. But at this point it's just easyer to press the comment button so *poke*
ello there
well my sister isn't here yet
and jojo is coming over, maybe spending the night too.
i feel normal? well empty really. well i hope she shows the world her smile today,
im thinking of her smile now and it makes me smile :) well im gonna go to alot of places with "my mother" inside joke. well if i feel like nlogging i will. i'll be on my sidekick like marc on he's blackberry
and jojo is coming over, maybe spending the night too.
i feel normal? well empty really. well i hope she shows the world her smile today,
im thinking of her smile now and it makes me smile :) well im gonna go to alot of places with "my mother" inside joke. well if i feel like nlogging i will. i'll be on my sidekick like marc on he's blackberry
*sighh*
Santonio and Troy aren't gonna play on monday night's game :(
and thats when ricky williams comes back. Holmes suffered a high ankle sprain against the Jets, while Polamalu has a knee sprain.
thats the reaon why i didn't see much of them :/ gosh well we're still gonna kick there asses, they havent won one game :p to i still have hope
and thats when ricky williams comes back. Holmes suffered a high ankle sprain against the Jets, while Polamalu has a knee sprain.
thats the reaon why i didn't see much of them :/ gosh well we're still gonna kick there asses, they havent won one game :p to i still have hope
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Whoaaaa
Where did time go?!
Did i really spen all that time
playing a lmae game on my phone?
Well i heard her voice today and it soo made my day :)
ahhhh im burning up, why is it sooo hot in here??? ahhhh omggg i can't believe it's 10:15,
Did i really spen all that time
playing a lmae game on my phone?
Well i heard her voice today and it soo made my day :)
ahhhh im burning up, why is it sooo hot in here??? ahhhh omggg i can't believe it's 10:15,
Monday, November 19, 2007
hero?
is that what i am?
im trying to understand,
A friend once told me that
the reason our hearts fall is because
an angel is crying over our shoulder.
All the time i can't feel my heart but when
she close i can feel my heart racing and i can't help but to wrap my arms around her.
in my journal i write about hopes, dreams, reality, sorrows, thoughts and the love of my life. There's a small girl named Catalina Rose Mckay and she's now my world, im the luckyest guy in the world to have her by my side, i really am. I'm starting to forget mt speeling and my thoughts are now untoachable. i can feel my heart beat and i have you to thank for that, my little angel, i love you. please never forget that <3
im trying to understand,
A friend once told me that
the reason our hearts fall is because
an angel is crying over our shoulder.
All the time i can't feel my heart but when
she close i can feel my heart racing and i can't help but to wrap my arms around her.
in my journal i write about hopes, dreams, reality, sorrows, thoughts and the love of my life. There's a small girl named Catalina Rose Mckay and she's now my world, im the luckyest guy in the world to have her by my side, i really am. I'm starting to forget mt speeling and my thoughts are now untoachable. i can feel my heart beat and i have you to thank for that, my little angel, i love you. please never forget that <3
tomorrow
today i broke down and cryed for a period,
i remembered all those times i would be one my knees and ask why.
im thinking of what mr. dennis about trying and keeping your head up but
my head feels like it weights a ton so it's hard to keep my head up.
mrs. brooks got on me for my hair and i wasnt gonna take it, so sent me to mrs, ryan. she asked me why i have it in my eyes and i told her thats what i hide behind, mrs. ryan couldnt even tell i was crying untill i wipe my tears away. thats why i like my hair. gosh i need to get a hold of myself. i miss you. well my words suck but brett's don't
Winter is cold and beautiful. Unforgiving and refreshing. Winter is like emotions. Complex and simple. The snow and ice is harsh and many have died bye its hand, but the snow and ice bring joy to those who don't challenge it. Live life with the intent for fun and don't look for trouble. Trouble usually finds people well enough on its own. Loves ya. ~Brett
i remembered all those times i would be one my knees and ask why.
im thinking of what mr. dennis about trying and keeping your head up but
my head feels like it weights a ton so it's hard to keep my head up.
mrs. brooks got on me for my hair and i wasnt gonna take it, so sent me to mrs, ryan. she asked me why i have it in my eyes and i told her thats what i hide behind, mrs. ryan couldnt even tell i was crying untill i wipe my tears away. thats why i like my hair. gosh i need to get a hold of myself. i miss you. well my words suck but brett's don't
Winter is cold and beautiful. Unforgiving and refreshing. Winter is like emotions. Complex and simple. The snow and ice is harsh and many have died bye its hand, but the snow and ice bring joy to those who don't challenge it. Live life with the intent for fun and don't look for trouble. Trouble usually finds people well enough on its own. Loves ya. ~Brett
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Always
im always thinking of you,
i think of the memories we've made
so far and i know theres many to come.
right now im thinking of the dance and of holding your hand while our foreheads were toaching :) <3
i think of the memories we've made
so far and i know theres many to come.
right now im thinking of the dance and of holding your hand while our foreheads were toaching :) <3
in this moment i feel like i lost all meaning
in this sudden moment i feel so useless and worthless :'(
Friday, November 16, 2007
i don't know what to name this
well it's friday,
andy dosen't have to work today
but i can't go to the mall :/
my little one is sick :/ i hope she feels better soon.
;) my memories with cat is as good as gold, hell i don't even like gold but you get the point and it's wayyy better <3
andy dosen't have to work today
but i can't go to the mall :/
my little one is sick :/ i hope she feels better soon.
;) my memories with cat is as good as gold, hell i don't even like gold but you get the point and it's wayyy better <3
i have butterflies
it's odd,
this feeling
is amazing. feelings like theses are
what i live for. even tho i don't feel them offten,
well i do, everytime i can hold her close to my beating heart.
why am i crying now? i don't understand. well im me and she loves me <3
no words can express what she means to me, i love you Catalina Rose Mckay <3 know
that there isn't a moment that i don't think of you
this feeling
is amazing. feelings like theses are
what i live for. even tho i don't feel them offten,
well i do, everytime i can hold her close to my beating heart.
why am i crying now? i don't understand. well im me and she loves me <3
no words can express what she means to me, i love you Catalina Rose Mckay <3 know
that there isn't a moment that i don't think of you
Thursday, November 15, 2007
why are we only promised a day? catalina this is for you
I can't wait to see your smile,
When I wake up each day,
It makes it worth while
With the kinda love you plant inside,
Specially with a heart so empty as mine.
All your soft tenderness is the one thing that I don't wanna miss.
When I wake up each day,
It makes it worth while
With the kinda love you plant inside,
Specially with a heart so empty as mine.
All your soft tenderness is the one thing that I don't wanna miss.
who dose everyone call me beautiful and gorgeous and adorable?
i don't think so,
only thing i really like about myself
is my eyes, my mom teels me there useless because
im as blinde as a bat and yet there huge. ah idk, well im gonna read.
tomorrow should be a great day. <3 well heres some of the things i get
your adorable!
:]
marry me?!?
cutie =]
um yeah, ur hott.
I love ur hair. It's so like perfecttt!
your very beautiful
your absolutly beautiful darling
You look lush on all your pics. But this is my fave =] xx
your well gourgeous
love yer hair too
=)
xx
This ones
My favorite
Because I
Get to
Actually see
Your hansom
Face ^.^
x
and it gose on and on.... believe me.
well if it's true im all cat's :)
only thing i really like about myself
is my eyes, my mom teels me there useless because
im as blinde as a bat and yet there huge. ah idk, well im gonna read.
tomorrow should be a great day. <3 well heres some of the things i get
your adorable!
:]
marry me?!?
cutie =]
um yeah, ur hott.
I love ur hair. It's so like perfecttt!
your very beautiful
your absolutly beautiful darling
You look lush on all your pics. But this is my fave =] xx
your well gourgeous
love yer hair too
=)
xx
This ones
My favorite
Because I
Get to
Actually see
Your hansom
Face ^.^
x
and it gose on and on.... believe me.
well if it's true im all cat's :)
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Please talk to me?
well i need to do my homewrok but i'll be sitting right next to my sidekick,
everything isn't okay, i need you
everything isn't okay, i need you
i wish i could take the world's pain and sorrow away
i wish that if just a toach of hands i could take away what makes people hurt inside,
i don't understand why kids like us get depressed and have to start using meds and soon we start to abuse them. i would take it all away, i feel like a blessed and cursed boy, i hate that i had to endure those feelings for so long but with it i've nevermind. cat did you read what me and mirissa said?
i don't understand why kids like us get depressed and have to start using meds and soon we start to abuse them. i would take it all away, i feel like a blessed and cursed boy, i hate that i had to endure those feelings for so long but with it i've nevermind. cat did you read what me and mirissa said?
somewhere in between, this is how i feel
I can't be
Losing sleep over this
No I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
[Somewhere In Between lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
What is real just a dream
Losing sleep over this
No I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
[Somewhere In Between lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
What is real just a dream
:)
the kid: i saw cat
the kid: she looks so beatuiful
the kid: your necklace always stands out when i see her
me: really?
the kid: yes
the kid: and i notice when ever i see her she always has it over her shirt
the kid: like she is proud of having it, or having you
me: :)
the kid: she looks so beatuiful
the kid: your necklace always stands out when i see her
me: really?
the kid: yes
the kid: and i notice when ever i see her she always has it over her shirt
the kid: like she is proud of having it, or having you
me: :)
ello
well it's 14/11/07
and today i looked like shit :/
hey if you ever want to email me my email is axelscene@tmail.com
and today i looked like shit :/
hey if you ever want to email me my email is axelscene@tmail.com
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Last night
We saw Dan in Real Life,
it was better than i thought it would be.
but i missed her so much, i always do but i missed her evn more because all the girls were laying their heads on the guys chests and i didn't now both lindsey's had bf's and that they would come so i felt out of place and :/ gosh theses picecs don't fit right as good as they use to :( well in time i'll find out. i hope didn't disaponit her because im not as great as she thought i would be :'(
it was better than i thought it would be.
but i missed her so much, i always do but i missed her evn more because all the girls were laying their heads on the guys chests and i didn't now both lindsey's had bf's and that they would come so i felt out of place and :/ gosh theses picecs don't fit right as good as they use to :( well in time i'll find out. i hope didn't disaponit her because im not as great as she thought i would be :'(
Saturday, November 10, 2007
One of my greatest questions with no answer
why is it that the cunning warior attcks nor body or mind, he attcks the heart?
Friday, November 9, 2007
well im going to the mall in like 10 mins
i better my sidekick,
i've waited forever because my mom kept saying
next week and she's in a good mood so theres a 80% i'll get it now.
gosh im not setting my hope high because then i'll feel bad when they get churshed so i can obly hope a wee bit that i get my lx today
i've waited forever because my mom kept saying
next week and she's in a good mood so theres a 80% i'll get it now.
gosh im not setting my hope high because then i'll feel bad when they get churshed so i can obly hope a wee bit that i get my lx today
well im going to the mall in like 10 mins
i better my sidekick,
i've waited forever because my mom kept saying
next week and she's in a good mood so theres a 80% i'll get it now.
gosh im not setting my hope high because then i'll feel bad when they get churshed so i can obly hope a wee bit that i get my lx today
i've waited forever because my mom kept saying
next week and she's in a good mood so theres a 80% i'll get it now.
gosh im not setting my hope high because then i'll feel bad when they get churshed so i can obly hope a wee bit that i get my lx today
:/
well it's friday and i have to wait it out untill the storm subsides.
thats how it always is i guess. well i look like shit today and well mall tonight so :)? ahhhhhhhh i can't stand ss and math it's soo boring.
thats how it always is i guess. well i look like shit today and well mall tonight so :)? ahhhhhhhh i can't stand ss and math it's soo boring.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
And when she walks all the wind blows and the angels sing and she'll never notice me
thats been on my mind for a while,
i don't know why but i'[ve been thinking of soldiers lately.
like each guy in your group is like blood to you so you fight to keep the alive
and you must do whatever it is to survive. )speeling sucks) well anywho i'm doing my homework and then back to resident eveil it is :/
i don't know why but i'[ve been thinking of soldiers lately.
like each guy in your group is like blood to you so you fight to keep the alive
and you must do whatever it is to survive. )speeling sucks) well anywho i'm doing my homework and then back to resident eveil it is :/
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
my happy song
i don't want to ever say almost,
i didn't want to say i almost had her.
now that i have my catalina i don't want to ever let go <3
a new day
i hope i can talk to mrs.ryan,
gosh i sooo can't wait to see cat! :)
i've missed her soo much, and im getting picked up at 1:50ush so i wont be
there at the end of the day :/ well thats just one more reason so enjoy seeing you before the homeromm bell :)
gosh i sooo can't wait to see cat! :)
i've missed her soo much, and im getting picked up at 1:50ush so i wont be
there at the end of the day :/ well thats just one more reason so enjoy seeing you before the homeromm bell :)
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
believe in me
well here i am once again,
i feel like crying and just run
away from myself. theres no escaping my fears,
theres to escaping the truth. i feel like i've failed everyone.
don't put your faith on me because i'll just disapoint you. now im crying.
theres vary little i can do, the darkness wont go away ;'( the boogyman never stops coming after me even when im down i get hit. im starting to lose my grip once again, please make this all stop. blood for tears it's only fair
i feel like crying and just run
away from myself. theres no escaping my fears,
theres to escaping the truth. i feel like i've failed everyone.
don't put your faith on me because i'll just disapoint you. now im crying.
theres vary little i can do, the darkness wont go away ;'( the boogyman never stops coming after me even when im down i get hit. im starting to lose my grip once again, please make this all stop. blood for tears it's only fair
well yeah...
joey was like poking me really hard and i punches him
where it hurts and he fell like a rock lmaoooo!!! :/
i miss the sond of her voice ;/ well theres always tomorrow
where it hurts and he fell like a rock lmaoooo!!! :/
i miss the sond of her voice ;/ well theres always tomorrow
i will burn this into my memory
Alone
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
Edgar Allan Poe
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
Edgar Allan Poe
fuck
i just hope they'll have it in stock (crosses fingers)
gosh i feel so small, last night before i went to sleep i went outside and
said a little prayer and was just wow, compared to everything around me im so small :/ i wonder what life has in store for me
gosh i feel so small, last night before i went to sleep i went outside and
said a little prayer and was just wow, compared to everything around me im so small :/ i wonder what life has in store for me
the best song writers well to me and thats all that matters
Scooter Ward- Cold
Amy lee- Evanescence
Shaun Morgan- Seether
Fher Olvera- Mana
John Rzeznik- Goo Goo Dolls
Ville Valo- HIM
Chester Bennington- Linkin Park
Brad Arnold- 3 Doors Down
(i know this is off topic but Catalina Mckay- because she's simply amazing)
<3 i don't know what i'd do without these people
Amy lee- Evanescence
Shaun Morgan- Seether
Fher Olvera- Mana
John Rzeznik- Goo Goo Dolls
Ville Valo- HIM
Chester Bennington- Linkin Park
Brad Arnold- 3 Doors Down
(i know this is off topic but Catalina Mckay- because she's simply amazing)
<3 i don't know what i'd do without these people
Monday, November 5, 2007
a good ending :D
well we won 38 to 7,
and im talking to my cusin roy!
ohh and we have an other home game this friday...
well im gonna kiss a necklace and call it a night <3
and im talking to my cusin roy!
ohh and we have an other home game this friday...
well im gonna kiss a necklace and call it a night <3
Here we go steelers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3 x99999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999++78+415 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *screams like gaby* cat cat cat im sooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! babe I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 x999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
i dare you too move
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistence
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
besides iris this is playing in my head over and over again.
i hope she's okay, gosh i feel so bad. i wish i could have kissed her, :'( i feel like crying but it's okay...
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistence
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
besides iris this is playing in my head over and over again.
i hope she's okay, gosh i feel so bad. i wish i could have kissed her, :'( i feel like crying but it's okay...
nightfall ;D
why is it that i always wanna
walk toward the moon at night?
well tomorrow is gonna suck and so is tonight :/
talk to me?
walk toward the moon at night?
well tomorrow is gonna suck and so is tonight :/
talk to me?
:)?
well besides the fact that i messed
i messed up the whole day and the next i'm gonna try to smile :)?
i messed up the whole day and the next i'm gonna try to smile :)?
;'( i don't belong
thats what it came down do,
i feel like i havent been there for you.
i havent even been there for myself. im crying more and more.
please don't let it come back, i can't handle it this time. :'(
i feel like i havent been there for you.
i havent even been there for myself. im crying more and more.
please don't let it come back, i can't handle it this time. :'(
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Saturday, November 3, 2007
well this is goodnight
just got done watching a sweet boxing match,
omggg theres gonna an AWESOMEEEE fight on my birthday!! Fernando Vargas and Ricardo Mayorda. i hope Vargas wins. Mayorga talks alot of shit i hate the guy but he's good. but hell oscar kicked he's ass up and down the ring. well anywho before i get carryed away... :) always thinking of you, well im gonna kiss your necklace and call it a night. sweet dreams hun <3 i love you
omggg theres gonna an AWESOMEEEE fight on my birthday!! Fernando Vargas and Ricardo Mayorda. i hope Vargas wins. Mayorga talks alot of shit i hate the guy but he's good. but hell oscar kicked he's ass up and down the ring. well anywho before i get carryed away... :) always thinking of you, well im gonna kiss your necklace and call it a night. sweet dreams hun <3 i love you
lol im yoda :)
hey MASTERR YODA thank you so much for being there for my best friend marissa. andthank you so much for being the boy you are now, and i know that you've had some hard times in your life which none of your friends may ever be able to understand, but i look up to you so much even though i don't really know you. i am amazed at how strong you are mentally, and one day i hope to be as strong as you. i am so glad i know who you are at least because now i know that it is possible to survive situations where you feel so far away from everyone around you. i just wish that i could be there for you like you have been there for me.
*yawwnn*
i just woke up from my third nap of the day,
(im trying to sleep the day away) :) i saw cat's comment,
i love you too hun. well im gonna go back to sleep.....zzzzzzz <3
(im trying to sleep the day away) :) i saw cat's comment,
i love you too hun. well im gonna go back to sleep.....zzzzzzz <3
Friday, November 2, 2007
f*ck
well the mall wasnt great,
john always acts differently
when he's with the others.
im listening to black ballon :)
*sigh* my normal feelings are setting in :/
well im getting a sidekick lx next sunday :)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck! :'(
john always acts differently
when he's with the others.
im listening to black ballon :)
*sigh* my normal feelings are setting in :/
well im getting a sidekick lx next sunday :)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck! :'(
dying
for a kiss,
thats why i kissed
her twice. well im goning to the mall
tonight to see all my friends ;)
thats why i kissed
her twice. well im goning to the mall
tonight to see all my friends ;)
this has been on my mind for hours now
theres a woman crying out
tonight, her world has changed,
she asks god why, her only son has died and now her daughter crys,
she can't sleep at night. well i can't cant wait for first glance. goodbye now
tonight, her world has changed,
she asks god why, her only son has died and now her daughter crys,
she can't sleep at night. well i can't cant wait for first glance. goodbye now
Thursday, November 1, 2007
my mind isn't racing but my heart is
i never felt this before,
it's rather odd. i can see our first kiss
everytime i close my eyes, gosh catalina is amazing,
she's stunning and just wow. my dream girl much? i really want to sleep
but i feel like i can't. im always thinking of her, her smile, her laugh, that look in her eyes at the dance and at homecoming game. so small and cute. nothing is coming out right but it dosent have to? well im gonna try to fall asleep, good night everyone xxxxxxx <3 bryan
it's rather odd. i can see our first kiss
everytime i close my eyes, gosh catalina is amazing,
she's stunning and just wow. my dream girl much? i really want to sleep
but i feel like i can't. im always thinking of her, her smile, her laugh, that look in her eyes at the dance and at homecoming game. so small and cute. nothing is coming out right but it dosent have to? well im gonna try to fall asleep, good night everyone xxxxxxx <3 bryan
i don't know what to feel or think
screaming won't do me any good this time,
i don't want to go to school tomorrow but i think i have to.
i don't like the way i look. god i don't know what to do :(
im so lost and confused. i don't understand much and know even less.
i don't want to sound like a cry baby but i feel blind and deaf. i wish i knew.
love me?
i don't want to go to school tomorrow but i think i have to.
i don't like the way i look. god i don't know what to do :(
im so lost and confused. i don't understand much and know even less.
i don't want to sound like a cry baby but i feel blind and deaf. i wish i knew.
love me?
whats wrong with me?
i went outside and screamed
but i felt like their was so
much left. hell if i let it all
out i would have been outside screaming untill
i couldnt speak anymore. i feel like somthing is wrong.
why is it that i always feel like im in the wrong place?
why is it that no matter where i go i don't belong?
god, i want to feel alive. i feel like im nothing more than a shell.
a cold tear just rolled down my cheek :( im sorry but im worthless
but i felt like their was so
much left. hell if i let it all
out i would have been outside screaming untill
i couldnt speak anymore. i feel like somthing is wrong.
why is it that i always feel like im in the wrong place?
why is it that no matter where i go i don't belong?
god, i want to feel alive. i feel like im nothing more than a shell.
a cold tear just rolled down my cheek :( im sorry but im worthless
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