f*ck

well the mall wasnt great,
john always acts differently
when he's with the others.
im listening to black ballon :)
*sigh* my normal feelings are setting in :/
well im getting a sidekick lx next sunday :)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck! :'(

dying

for a kiss,
thats why i kissed
her twice. well im goning to the mall
tonight to see all my friends ;)

today 2/11/7

she seemed so happy :)
it made my day! <3 her

this has been on my mind for hours now

theres a woman crying out
tonight, her world has changed,
she asks god why, her only son has died and now her daughter crys,
she can't sleep at night. well i can't cant wait for first glance. goodbye now

my mind isn't racing but my heart is

i never felt this before,
it's rather odd. i can see our first kiss
everytime i close my eyes, gosh catalina is amazing,
she's stunning and just wow. my dream girl much? i really want to sleep
but i feel like i can't. im always thinking of her, her smile, her laugh, that look in her eyes at the dance and at homecoming game. so small and cute. nothing is coming out right but it dosent have to? well im gonna try to fall asleep, good night everyone xxxxxxx <3 bryan

i don't know what to feel or think

screaming won't do me any good this time,
i don't want to go to school tomorrow but i think i have to.
i don't like the way i look. god i don't know what to do :(
im so lost and confused. i don't understand much and know even less.
i don't want to sound like a cry baby but i feel blind and deaf. i wish i knew.
love me?

whats wrong with me?

i went outside and screamed
but i felt like their was so
much left. hell if i let it all
out i would have been outside screaming untill
i couldnt speak anymore. i feel like somthing is wrong.
why is it that i always feel like im in the wrong place?
why is it that no matter where i go i don't belong?
god, i want to feel alive. i feel like im nothing more than a shell.
a cold tear just rolled down my cheek :( im sorry but im worthless